tuesday disruptions…

at one point in time thursday was my most despised day of the week but now ii feel as tho tuesdays are just very rude interruptions in my lifee… wednesday cant get here fast enough

putting the pieces back together…

ii guess everything is getting better by the day. God has a way of restoring faith… still a lil down about everything that has gone on but ii do realize that at the end of the day all that ii have to do is put it in HiS hands… ii love my lifee

…ii remember a melody.

ii remember a song on Kirk Franklins album that ii used to lovee nd ii hadnt heard it in a while before today…. ii used to play it for my bestie all the time when she was going thru kemo but today ii had to play it for myself

 

lately ive bee thinking, thinking about you. and all the things ive seen you go thru. your mother the cancer the problems at home sorry ii wish ii could fix whats wrong. ii hurt when you hurt ii cry when you cry even the deep ones sometimes wonder why am ii goin thru im waiting but still no You… HES STILL IN CONROL. HES SOVEREIGN AND HE KNOWS JUST HOW IT FEELS TO BE AFRAID HAVE ALL YOUR LOVE WALK AWAY BE STILL AND KNOW HES STILL IN CONTROL….

….just a note.

the past few weeks have been quite amusing to say the least… a journey but a funny one at best. well its funny now but wasnt funny about a week ago. ii laugh at myself time nd time again for letter certain things and people get to me but ive always been that way and consequently ii dont see that changing. but the good thing is that everytime ii get a breaking point ii kinda realize whos there and who aint. lost two really good .friendss. in the past month and altho they made me sad it is what it is. one just faded into thin air and the other was one of those things that you try to hold on to for forever but its doing nothing to uplift and everything to hinder. its okay tho… lesson learned. good news is that in a few weeks me shay nd kris will be back to bmore like old times nd im loving it if only for a few days… keep me prayed up as always

too much going on…

theres a LOT going on right now in my tiny world. trying to remain positive nd not think about the issues but sometimes they come to remind me that everything is not wonderful… im okk tho. trusting God thru everythingg. no time to really post dailey but just bought a new comp so ill be better… promise. just keep praying