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silence is not always deadly

Posted in life, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 30, 2008
im not going to be writting much after this post. right now im in the middle of a transition and ii am kinda trying to take time out to get my thoughts and plans in order. im not going to leave you guys high and dry til the end of the summer but dont expect too much out of me. ii plan on dropping by every now and then [[prayerfully once a week]] to keep you updated on my progress but dont really be on the lookout until the end of august.around the time school starts back up or something. but.in order to keep you well informed ii decided to let you all know what will be going on in my life up until august and even past that. well fourth of july is friday {thank Jesus} and that should be fun…no real plans tho. probably not doing anything since the aunt that cooks out is in florida. boo her. lol. uumm. July 11th is Kicking it with the King at Ne Psalmist. Oh so excited about that. dont know whos going to be there or anything but ii know im going to be in the building. July 19th is our church wide picnic and it was ssoo fun last year so im def going this year even tho its fifteen bucks {with the price of gas!!} august doesnt hold too many exciting things. hopefully my uncle will come visit or we will go see him. i dont know which one yet. but august is kinda a big month for me because im making transition in my job in the middle of that month. after that its all birthdays and holidays. sept 27.Dilly will be 21. oct 6.Lil Eric is turning two. oct 25.India is 22. nov 15.Shany is eighteen and she will be away at college celebrating. nov 16.me and Shay are 21. after that its thanksgiving and christmas. excited about that and know that its going to come super fast. oh thank Jesus lmbo.
but. please. keep me and my family in your prayers. pray for my friends as well. God is revealing a lot to me at this time and im just taking time to soak it all up. learning how to just sit still and listen to him. just keep praying for me and feel free to come by.leave me love. let me know you were thinking about me or something. dont be strangers cause even tho im not writing.im still stopping by and checking every one of your blogs out on a daily basis. ttyl. and be blessed.
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fat.thumb.issues

Posted in church, decisions, family, friends, frustrations, issues, life, people I love, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 23, 2008
yesterday was probably the FUNNIEST most ANNOYING day EVER!!! after early service we decided to take a trip to Burger King to get some breakfast. there was only two cars in front of us so we were thinking that the wait wouldnt be long at all…NOT. first off, the manager was so damn disrespectful it was ridiculous. ii was tryna piss her off so ii ordered a whole bunch of food that nobody really wanted. it really worked too cause she was heated by the time we drove around to the second window lmao. but ii guess karma is a big headed b. cause we ended up waiting for 40 minutes just to get our food. thanks to the lady with the family van who decided to order eight hundred meals for all her kids. but. by the time 10:30 hit we knew we had to get back to the church in 15 minutes or else SOMEONE would be in trouble. we got our food at 10:30 and ii literally sped up North Point just to get there in time. needless to say that there are people that actually drive the speed limit and those people slowed me down so we didnt get there til 10:47 and that was two minutes too late. anyways…ii ate ALL THE FOOD like a big fattie and it was delicious lolzz.
 then. after second service me and Shay goes home to eat some crabs. we eating them and ii get to the second to last one and then the inevitable happens… fricking claw clawed me. stuck me right in my damn thumb. im telling ya.it hurt like crap. and the seasoning only made it burn more but ii kept eating my crabs lol. ii didnt really realize until last night that it really is swollen a little bit and now ii have a fat thumb that really starts to hurt when ii squeeze it lmao.
ii am actually irritated for a number of reasons. at first ii was upset with my mother but then ii talked to someone who could better explain things so now im cool with her. ii understand her for like once in life and im gonna allow her to sulk for a while. she’ll come around eventually. now….the REAL reason for my irritation is money… well of course it is. thats the only thing that irritates me. well. ii am going to be really honest right now about the plans that got crushed. this weekend is our annual PCIF conference. of course.last year ii was so not excited about this but this year it is what it is. BUT.ii called myself trying to beat the system and get around paying but FOR SOME REASON they aren’t doing things the same as last year so I HAVE TO PAY THE REGISTRATION FEE and do you know what this means?? ii refuse to stay in a hotel room. that would be 200 dollars out of my pocket that ii could spend on like THE FIVE HUNDRED DOLLAR GAS or something like that. so.this weekend ii am going to be taking Chelley to the banquet on Friday night and ill prob shill out by the bool or something until that is over with. then ill drive ALL THE WAY home to get a good nights sleep. then on saturday ill DRIVE ALL THE WAY BACK for whatever is going on that day. ii figured that an extra round trip is not going to cost me 129 dollars in gas…maybe around 40 tops. so ii am actually SAVING MONEY…hey.it feels damn good lmao. so…thats my issue for this weekend. oh.and ii have three days until Thursday gets here and ii am ssoo excited. you’ll find out sooner or later whats going on but for now just know that ii am excited about it. and EVERYONE knows that ii HATE thursdays with a passion but this Thursday is going to be a good effin day. lmao. ii hope so at least. keep praying for me and all my issues lmao.
other than all the fat.thumb.issues muh life is great. ii am realizing more and more each day that ii gots the best friends.fam.support that ANYONE could EVER ask for so ii know that ii am blessed and ii wouldnt trade ANY of them in for the world.

uugghh:: exhaustion

Posted in family, friends, life, people I love, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 20, 2008
it has been a very long. fun. interesting. great week. im glad that it is almost over. ii am tired and sleepy and just plain exhausted and right now im really irritated. why?? ii dont have my credit card on me and ii need it to pay this stupid stupid bill. uugghh. the stresses. then. stupid sister of mines decides to call me to babysit this morning. ii asked her for a few dollars and she said she didnt have it. ii dont really need it but thats not the point at all. FIVE MINUTES LATER…she says she wants to get crabs. but yet you dont have money. something aint right with that. but ii aint bugging cause ii wasn’t gonna watch him anyways. today:: grlzz night. so excited lolzz. ii was hoping that my papa got off work early so we could chill over there later but we’ll see what happens. ii just really want to hang out and chill or something. nothing big. spades would be awesome tonight…we can save all the fun for tomorrow lol. ok. how bout. ii am soo fricking pissed that ii have to register for this stupid stupid conference and its not even like ii can just not go cause ii have stuff to do there. idk. ima find a way around paying cause ii aint tryna pay for no registration and a hotel room. yes. im being cheap right now. but just the thought of this long weekend is making me tired. ::yawn::.. and someone tell me why ii am continuously losing weight…idk whats wrong with that picture but my doctor suggested that ii work out just so ii can be sure that ii am in shape. ii figured ill prob start working out in the next few weeks. ii was gonna do a gym membership but ii aint tryna pay for that so ii might just start running or something in the morning. that should be good for me. we’ll see how that goes lol. well. im bout to go get breakfast and then start on this work…uugghh…going to starbucks too so you know im happy lmao. ii want a passion tea lemonade..hhmmm delicious. haha buh-bye and have a GREAT weekend. 

second best

Posted in decisions, FOOD!!, friends, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 19, 2008
everyone knows how ii feel about Papa Johns… its my all time favorite pizza EVER. get me some and ill love you for life.honestly. so.of course no one can ever top them but someone was kinda close last night. guess who?? none other than Pizza Johns on Back River Neck. now.understand.this is nothing new at all. ii have always liked their pizza but. for some reason last night it was just extra extra good. perhaps it was the fact that ii was dying of starvation or maybe even the fact that ii went with the most important people. or maybe just because ii haven’t been in like forever. but whatever the reason.the pizza was ssoo good. of course they could never top Papa Johns but they can surely be second best.

:nothing to say really:

Posted in [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 17, 2008
ii dont really have anything to talk about write now. nothing to share and nothing to express. life is great.wonderful.excellent. so.just keep me in your prayers and i’ll check back with you guys in a lil bit. just.dont.stop.praying.

a void that cant be filled

Posted in love by Tanae' A. on June 13, 2008
nothing can fill the void. not even muh papa. ii miss him.thats all to it. but.ii guess it dont matter either way. ii just wish he knew how much ii really do love him. ii try to tell him but somethings just cant be explained. no matter how much ii say it its still impossible to convey it because you cant put that into words. no matter who comes along…dudes come with the quickness but NO ONE in the world can take his place in my heart. no one has even made it into my heart. ii just want him to know and understand. until the day ii die, ii will love him. aint nothing changing it. no matter where this life takes me or who ii end up with…James Harrison Wells II will have my heart FOREVER.

wow. thats all ii can say

Posted in acceptance, actions, friends, life, people I love, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 12, 2008
the past week or so has been very eventful and tiring but ii cannot complain because it has been excellent. tomorrow is friday and ii am soo excited even tho ii know that nothing spectacular will happen lol [[or atleast ii think it wont]] ii am extremely tired from being out doing NOTHING last night. we rode back and forth with Jones-Z while he recruited people. oh, sorry. Jones is a recruiter for the marines and a very good friend. for some weird reason unknown to man we were at his office ALL day yesterday and then had to ride with him to go pick up the new kids. in the midst of all that there was car trouble so we were out like later than normal and now ii am sleepy as hell. something has to be done about this. either starbucks or sleep and since sleep aint coming til tonight ii def need a caramel frapp like right now. anyways. everyone. ii am officially a red hed!!! YaY!! ii just want you all to know and be as excited as me because ii am loving it. it is super hott lolzz. but, it is prob going to be sweated out by tomorrow cause ii have so much work to do when ii get home. scrubbing floors, washing clothes, moving furniture and all that good stuff. tell me why…last night while Jones-Z was tryna figure out how to get home after his car died we were in that joint cleaning up. like serious. we ate some pizza and started to wash our dishes and realized that this dude is never home long enough to clean the damn house. and you would think that since his g/f is living there with him there would be some type of balance but nope, her shit is dirtier than his. we started in the kitchen. washing and putting away dishes, cleaned the stove, scrubbed the floor. got all his crap up out the living room, dusted the tables and vacuumed in there. made his bed. put all his dirty clothes away, took out the trash, cleaned UNDER his bed. put all her crap in the closet. then there was the bathroom. oh sweet mother of Jesus was it nasty. there’s a his and hers side…luckily. ii know guys are not clean creatures by nature but his stuff was actually clean. his sink was clean and everything. we just had to kinda straighten out his stuff and wipe off his mirror. now, this chick. she is just a grimey trick. rust stains all in the sink. hair dye, shaving cream, dirt, grime and rust all in the shower. but why tho?? he was forced to take showers in the other bathroom because she just left everything a mess. it was nasty. ii wasnt going to do it but we figured that he shouldnt have to live in that just because she left it that way. so we went to work. scrubbing floors and showers. lysoled EVERYTHING up. lit candles. sprayed some febreze in the couches and finally we were done. needless to say, he came in their shocked as hell but he was happy that someone had cleaned it up and ii had to let him know that shes a dirty gurl. ii think that for once he felt like royalty lol. came home to a clean house, food cooked and three hott chicks haha. too bad it wasnt that type of party lol. payback is:: dinner tomorrow night. fried chicken, mac and cheese, corn on the cob, stuffing [for honey] and a bunch of biscuits. and of course he prob dont know the first thing to do since he currently lives off of tombstone pizza. so we’ll end up cooking for ourselves and cleaning up too lol. but, oh well. as long as he is buying the food.
yesterday, ii was thinking about a certain someone and ii remembered that sometimes things change. it took me a minute to kinda come to grips with that but if ever she choses to stop by my blog ii hope she reads this post because ii want her to know that ii appreciate her. in my life she has taught me so much, given so much and instilled so much in me and a few days ago ii was disappointed by her actions but ii really do appreciate and love her dearly. ii guess its really true what folk say, some people only meant to be in your life for a season. hopefully she’ll always be there kinda but ii know that even after everything that we have gotten thru together, things will never go back to how they used to be and ii can respect and accept that. ii guess things are also the same for that one other person as well. ii can always count on her to pray me thru but things are never going to go back to how they used to be. really if ii be honest with myself, things were never that great to begin with, ii just put in a lil too much effort. but oh, well. there are so many people that were in my life and are not anymore and ii want them all to know that ii love them dearly and ii wouldnt trade them for the world because they all impacted my life in some kinda way. they were just meant to be here for a season…its gravy tho.
p.s. tila tequila is the shiz-nit….lmao

Rest In Peace

Posted in love, people I love, R.I.P Askew, R.I.P Brielle, R.I.P Cornell, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 10, 2008
in four days we will get together to celebrate the birthday of Brielle C. Newland. unfortunately this angel will not be here to celebrate with us but we all know that she is in our hearts forever. and ii know that she would want Rye enjoy their birthdays just like they would if she was here. Happy Birthday Bre. You are loved and missed beyond belief.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tawana:: ii was looking at the pic of you that Brandy had and ii couldnt help but laugh. ii remembered one of the last days we spent together was at the birthday cookout and ii had on my shades… you tried so hard to pull my card in front of mommy. ii threatened you so many times that night but ii would give anything to go back to that day. ill never forget that last night before you went home and you was just talking about life and Sherry on the way to the lion. ii never thought that would be our last night together but ii know that everything happens for a reason and ii know that ii will always remember that weekend. you were the best and ii miss ya crazy self. ii promise, every time ii sit at that computer ii think about you struggling tryin to put it together lmao. love those memories. love you. Rest In Peace, we’re gonna make this a good summer.
Cornie and Bishop:: thank you so much for being with us on sunday. we had so much fun and everything turned out wonderfully. ii know you guys played a part in that. ii know yall are watching over me so yall know everything that is going on down here. just help me to keep praying because im not really sure whats gonna come next and every time ii think about it ii think about the promise ii made you guys. ii kinda know that it wasnt just abouto the choir. love you guys to death and ii wish you were here but ii know that you are in a better place. you guys are the best ever.
 

yes.ii love it.

Posted in church, family, life, people I love, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 9, 2008
so.as you can see. ii made thru this slave heat weekend in one piece.and ii must say that it was pretty good too. youth day was a super success and altho ii was stressed all day running around between dances and choir stands ii was very much pleased. everything went so super well and ii am happy. ii must say for the record that french fry lady is off the hook.ii only call her french fry lady because ii dont know her name and she preached about french fries at our youth day last year. ii guess now im gonna have to start calling her pearl gurl.lmao. that lady can preach her tail off.
about the whipped cream.lmao. saturday we were watching movies and ii went to find a soda in the fridge and BEHOLD there goes whipped cream.lol.sorry.it just made me happy. ii dropped the soda ii was so excited.right there next to the orange soda was the hi-light of my evening and ii was super excited today cause ii got a frapp with EXTRA whipped cream and caramel sauce…how hott is that?? yes.ii lovezz me some whipped cream.ii think ii might have to buy myself some for safe keeping.lol
ii misses muh best friend…it is senior week and my bestie and goone are in o.c. living it up. they are not coming back til sunday and ii need her to be here cause ii have so much to tell her. omg.yes ii need her this week lol. but good thing is that after this week is over everything will go back to normal and ii will FINALLY have my goone with me.now, im looking forward to that.
tryna be in the Zone. yes.ii am being a lil bit greedy but ii figured that deep down inside this is called rational thinking.lmao. ii want more money. being as tho ii just got promoted ii have more money but still, ii want more money than that.lol. so, what do we do?? we get a pt job. yes.ii know ive tried this before and it didnt work too well for me but understand the determination. ii cannot continue to have my afternoons free because then ii end up getting into trouble. ii know that summer is all about money and fun but the more busy ii am the less mess ii can get into and then ill have even more fun online SHOPPING when that cool check come in. naw.but seriously. ive put a lot of thought into it and im tryna be in there so im keeping my fingers crossed so that ii can occupy my time a lil better. and ii def have to get the finances together so that ii can get my stuff together for school in the fall…so looking forward to that. so everyone pray that ii get this pt and you may can even squeeze a dollar or two outta me lmao.
last but not least.the hi-light of my whole weekend. ok.let me not lie. it really wasnt the hi-light but it meant a lot to me. ii talked to my best friend.brudder.cousin phil. yes.he called me. of course, it has been forever since we’ve talked because of all the number switches and what not but the other night he called me and ii was secretly happy cause ii misses him so much. ii am kinda sad tho because things arent the same with so much space between us.he aint the same phil that he was when he was here and ii wish he would come back so that ii can keep tabs on him and make sure he aint being dumb. but oh well.ii still lovezz him to death and thats the only dude that ii bangs wit heavy.
hope your weekends.were as good as mine.even in all this heat.oh yeah.shout out to my big cousin:: PASTOR james e. lemon jones. proud of you baby.

healer….thats what HE is

Posted in family, friends, frustrations, issues, life, love, people I love, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 6, 2008
for some reason right now, ALL my gurliezz are going thru their own struggles. they all need someone to lean on, someone to understand, and some God to heal. all their issues are different, all their needs are diverse, but their hurt is all the same. and here ii am, sitting here trying to be strong for all them because reality is, im just on chills. everything is going great on my end. im getting blessings galore and maybe that lil thing a week ago that seemed so weird at the time was just God preparing me for this week’s problems. today im trying my hardest to be there for all of them and most would find that to be impossible but ii can do it. things work themselves out. and just like ii told them all, God heals all broken hearts, all wounded spirits and all troubled minds. ii pray for each of their situations, ii pray that they keep the faith and ii pray that God does a work even now. ii dont know what tomorrow is going to bring but ii know that those girls have each other to lean on… they got some chix that are there for them no matter what. and even if all we have to offer is a shoulder to cry on then so be it. ii trust Him to heal all hurt, calm all spirits and bring peace to every mind. ii trust Him. He’s gonna do it, He’s gonna have His way and He’s gonna have each and every one of them stronger because of what they have had to endure. pray for my gurlzz…pray for their families…pray for every single person that they come in contact with in the days to come. pray that they remain strong through it all and when all else fails, pray that they have what it takes to call on the name of JESUS when they have no one else to call. ii love those gurls, all of them…from the bestie all the way down to the cunt…ii love them all and ii know that they’ll ALL  be okay.