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if ii could send a letter to heaven…

Cornell and MY Bishop,
ii know you two are watching over us so you know everything that is going on. well, it’s that time of the year again and last year you guys pulled us thru in one piece. yeah, youth day o7 was a good day. sometimes, ii tend to forget that you guys are always there is spirit, ii know you will be with us on sunday. every once in a while ii feel like giving up, ya know, feel like walking away but then ii remember that you used to always tell me to keep on coming so thats what im doing. ii just wish that one day ii would walk into that sanctuary and see your smiling faces. but ii carry you in my heart forever. Cornell, ii listen to your solo every once in a while, it makes me smile. it kinda makes me feel close to you in a way. this year, youth day aint as big as it was last year. maybe it wont even be as exciting…but we gonna get up there and do our thang. ii was hoping to make you guys proud but ii know that just my showing up is causing you two to smile. ii miss y’all. so much. thank you for being there always, not just during your vacation on Earth but also for looking out from up there in heaven. aint no way ii would’ve stayed this long if it wasn’t for the influence that you guys have and the promise that ii made.
ii love you ssooo much, continue to be with me, with us, always especially next sunday. ii love you…
Tanae’

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this weekend was expected to be a fairly good one. happy to say, ii wasnt disappointed at all. friday ii ended up being home which was okay with me because ii needed the peace and quiet. ii thought ii would be able to sleep in on saturday but people in america think that seven thirty is a good time to txt me. by the time ten o clock hit breakfast was ready and ii was so thankful to mommy for being such a good chef lolzz. ii got a shower and prepared for my day out. [[notice ii said out and not in]] anyways, it was raining by the time my bae came over so we decided to chill out until it stopped. what do you know…it stops around four o clock so we get ourselves together to go to the movies. next thing we know the wind picks up top speed and we are stuck in the house again. so needless to say, we miss the movie and we are sitting here trying to figure out what we are going to do. then ii get a txt message saying that ii better find something to wear for church because ii had to sing. so me corey and shay decide to go to dots to find something to wear. we come back and decide to just stay in, play spades and order pizza. meek came over and we sat around until around ten thirty having a ball. meek and corey left and ii headed straight to the bed. ii didnt want to wake up sunday morning but ii knew that we had to. of course we are always late because we just wouldnt be us if we were on time lolzz. anyways, shany was to lead the first song of the day and ii was floored when she did a cross over strut around the front of the church. this girl did a dip, a few spins and ii was waiting patiently for her to rock a shoobalou but ii was disappointed lolzz. after church ii drove home and treated mommy to dinner [[understand the two verbs in that sentence… ii DROVE and ii TREATED…now you know it was a good day lol]] ii went home, took a nap and then chilled with in and the baby for a long long time lolzz. ii eventually went to sleep and woke up this morning ready for work.

ii also talked to one of my favorite people this weekend and ii was happy about that. ever since ii can remember my uncle gerald has been down for me and shay. of course, we are his favorite nieces and ii owe part of that to mommy who is his favorite sister. yeah, its good to be associated lolzz. but seriously tho, this dude has been there since day one and he is like the only male role model in my life as far as family is concerned. but, he holds a special place in my heart and ii dont really talk to him as often as ii would like to but when ii can talk to him its like a breath of fresh air. ii plan to go to go visit him in boston very soon but until ii know that he is only a phone call away. this is my heart right here…

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ok, and someone please explain to me why some Tyler Perry tickets is damn near fifty bucks. ii dont understand that at all. ii was trying to be nice and so ii told my mommy that ii would treat her to go see the Marriage Counselor but when ii looked today at the prices the numbers almost blew me away. $45.50…are they serious?? ii wish ii didnt have to pay for her to go but ii already said ii would and im a lil pissed about it especially since ii just bought them Katt Williams’ tickets. but ii aint tripin over it, ii gots the money so might as well stop complaining lol.
and ii have a slight problem…nothing huge, i said slight.  ready?? okay… WHAT THE HECK AM I GOING TO DO FOR MY TWENTY FIRST BIRTHDAY?? ii already know that im going to spend a weekend with my uncle for a weekend around that time but other than that ii want to go out somewhere. ii dont want a party or nothing like that but ii do want to have fun and enjoy myself. most likely there will be a dinner for my fam and close friends so ii can celebrate with them but i dunno about the rest of the stuff. im trying to get up out of bmore so if anyone has any ideas that you wanna toss around, let me know. this is crucial and we must start planning now so that ii can start saving up.
and…i am thanking God for my mommy’s friends because one of her peoples just opened up a shop and he is going to hook a sister up with a car in a few weeks and it already passed inspection so ii am so excited about that. everything is working itself out and now all ii have to do is pass my driving  test in two weeks and im good to go. please please please be in prayer for me. and pray that my sis gets approved for her townhouse tomorrow. im ready to make the big move~DOWNSTAIRS lmao!! haha!!

happy monday to yah!!

P.S. ii lovezz my church!!!

second sunday… :-)

Posted in choir, church, clothes, good times, Jasmine, lets have CHURCH!!, Shiloh, youth ministry by Tanae' A. on February 11, 2008
Please just let me tell someone the events of my Sunday morning… First off, they tell us friday night that we have to wear red and black on Sunday to sing in and I was tripin off that. I already had something close to red [it was actually burgundy but oh well] but the bottoms would be a prob. I needed black pants. Of course, it is not a pay week so im kinda stuck like ok i’m wearing jeans and its gonna be what it is. Shay was struggling too, she didnt have a red shirt. So mommy decides to take Shay out to get a shirt on friday but then the shirt that she gets was too small so she couldnt even wear it. So Sunday morning comes and I got on Shay’s too big pants and this belt was wrapped around FIVE times and suffocating the dear life out of me lol. And Shay wore the all black and hooked it up with red accessories and red boots. We were late…of course. [[not me and Shay’s fault of course]] We get on the choir stand and everything is going great. Service is rolling smoothly and cool and then it comes time for us to sing. Oh Jesus…bless us indeed!! So, Darnell starts with this lead and then we all chime in sounding good and then it happened… the unthinkable went down. This man got up from the organ and did a shoobalou that was OUT OF THIS WORLD. He had people in the aisles tryna rock the two step and we was up there crackin up something serious. By the times we finished the song my stomach and cheeks hurt from laughing so hard but I was so happy that everything worked out well. We had fun up there, we sang well and we looked darn good if I might say so myself lol. Oh and let it be known for all those that didn’t get the memo….it is an absolute SIN to give Jasmine Jacole Portia Owens the microphone under ANY CIRCUMSTANCES WHAT-SO-EVER. She is not to stand anywhere by a mic no matter what, I dont care if its welcome or offering or the benediction…DO NOT GIVE HER THE MIC!!! That was the most outrageous funny thing that I had seen all day long and I want everyone to know that I object, that type of behavior is so unacceptable in the house of God lolzz. I’m glad that we got up there and did our thing and I am actually looking forward to practice friday night and next second sunday to roll around. Darnell is no Cornell but he’s alright with me… yeah, I can handle this dude and his shoobalou!!
shoobalou::
an unfamiliar foot movement usually done by those that have not a care in the world. This movement can be dangerous to those within a two foot radius and deadly to persons that engage in this type of behavior. If and when you encounter someone that does this type of movement in front of more than five people, BEWARE this person is ridiculously hilarious. lol

Y&YA

Posted in choir, healing, health, ministry, music, R.I.P Cornell, Shiloh, youth ministry by Tanae' A. on February 6, 2008
This coming friday the youth and young adult choir will come together to have a rehearsal. We now have a new musician and while I am excited about something new I am also a bit skeptical about this. The last time Y&YA sung we had Cornell there with us. I’m doing this for him. I remember so many days we would come out and it would only be four or five of us at best and he would always tell us to keep coming. He always said that it would get better. He was that drive we needed to keep going some days. Even tho he’s not here in person I feel like he is the drive that still keeps me going. I can picture him now with that grin as he raises that one eyebrow and says “baby girl, you gotta keep doin what you doing” and then that crazy Askew Williams would always co-sign with him “thats right keep on coming,  just keep on coming” lolzz… It wont be the same without Cornell but I know that his spirit lives on and because I know that he believed in us i’m going to go in there knowing that we can do and be something better than anyone ever imagined. It may start with a few but I’m believing that we will be fruitful and multiply.
Cornell~ I miss you so much and I love you. Things aint the same without you but I keep you in my heart and I thank you for everything that you  have done. I am a better person because I was impacted by you and I know that you are looking out for me, for us. Strengthen the Bishop so he can come back and play for us real soon. Rest In Peace.
Bishop, My Bishop~ You know I loves you and I hope that you get better real soon cause I miss seeing your smiling face.  Jus take your time and get well because we need you. See you soon and until then you are in my prayers.
Tanae’ A.