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the funny emergency

Posted in Baltimore, blessings, decisions, FOOD!!, Marine Corps., phunni moments, the [[OUTZZ]] of my life... by Tanae' A. on December 24, 2008

so…ii like finally have time to actually sit down in front of a computer so im like happy go lucky. ii have been waiting to write a post about this for a few days now and really did not feel like using my phone to do is so now you all can enjoy the funniness with me. as you all know, my sister graduated boot camp two weeks after me. ii dreaded taking the long trip back to the Island but ii promised my senior drill instructor that ii would go so me, mommy, bestie and uncle hopped in the truck for the ten hour drive back to Parris Island. the drive there was cool. we were all on chills. by the time we got there ii began to dread the L O N G trip back but ii made it my business to enjoy my second visit to the island. the weather was dead nice so the entire two days went smoothly. after MY graduation ii had the priviledge of going to Golden Corale where the Marines eat free and ii was like so super excited about that. by me being the wonderful, concerned, hearty sister that ii am ii suggested that we all go back after her ceremony but everyone was so anxious to get back on the road so my idea was flushed down the drain. [[now one may think that Golden Corale has nothing at all to do with an emergency since we did not go but this my friends is the most crucial piece of information in this story. so keep in the membrane that we DID NOT go to Golden Corale to eat dinner after ii suggested it about one hundred times]] although ii was hungry ii decided not to put up a fight because, after all, this was Shays day and not mine so we were going to go along with whatever she wanted to do. ii put a smile on my face and got ready for the ride home. ii figured since ii couldnt eat right then ii would snack on some chips in the process. we get on the road and we are about a good fifteen minutes from the Island. all of a sudden ii get this pain in my back and in my chest. ii couldnt breathe or nothing. please.pull.over.right.now. about ten minutes later im on the side of the road laying on a blanket cause it hurts to much to stand up, no shoes on cause we are about to ride for ten hours and just looking jacked up. mommy and uncle are scared shitless and the only thing they know how to do is call 9-1-1. yall, ii thought ii was going to die that day. we get in the ambulance and by the time we get to the hospital the pain has subsided a little bit but they still want to run tests or whatever. so we get there and they check everything and give me this medication to take. about twenty minutes after we get to the hospital we are discharged and my diag-nonsense is acid reflex. lol. they gave me some medication to take when ii eat greasy foods and stuff but other than that ii would survive. NOW. although this story is quite funny…ii have a HUGE chip on my shoulder. yes. ii am holding a grudge. towards who, might you ask. MOMMY, UNCLE, SHAY && BESTIE. if we would have stopped at Golden Corale to get a full five course meal and then got on the road then ii would not have had to cure my hunger with utz sour cream and onion chips. if ii would not have had to eat chips then ii would not have had a sudden case of acid reflex. if ii had not had the sudden case of acid reflex we would not have had to hold off our drive home for an entire hour. BUT sense we ended up having an hour delay in our schedule anyway…we would have been better off just going to effin golden corale. does everyone see how that one little minor decision has negatively effected the rest of my life?? lol. but seriously…bet ya next time im hungry we’ll stop to eat. but thank Jesus that it was only acid reflex and thank Him even more that the rush to the hospital, the twenty minutes in the ER and the prescription that they shoved in my face all came up to zero dollars. uugghh. must love free medical and dental!!!

the things GOD does…

ii know ii dont even really have the time to blog but ii just had to get this out. it’ll come back to bite me on tomorrow but ii had to take a few minutes just to say that GOD is awesome.
i’ll say to all you B-more ppl…if you missed Kickin It With the King on this past Friday night you truely missed a treat. it was a complete blessing in so many ways. now, as you all know ii was super excited to be going because AJB and Ap were going to be in the house and ii knew that they were going to shut the place down. we were in there enjoying the occasion…having a good hallelujah time and in the back of my mind im wondering when are they gonna bring out the fam. well…second to last.here they come. their name was called and after that God took over. okay…ii know AJB. see him quite often…talk to him…interact with him. ii know AP…talk to them too. just regular ordinary people with some SERIOUS talent. like super ridiculous talent. that is known…nothing new about it. ii know AJB is anointed in so many ways…no doubt about that. BUT WHAT II SAW FRIDAY NOT WAS BEYOND THIS WORLD.
the word says that many are called but few are chosen. this dude is chosen… ii know the talent but WWAAYY beyond that aspect of it ii was blown. ii honestly left out of there and in the back of my mind im thinking “God, how did you do that??” like seriously. it is truely unbelievable the anointing that is on this group of people. the anointing that is on this dude… its ridiculous. the crowd was hype and the second they walked onto the stage you could just feel the entire atmosphere change. ii told Jay yesterday that with each one of them that walked onto that stage more Jesus filled the sanctuary. ii was blown. completely. im still blown. ii dont know  how God can work thru someone in that way but it is amazing to me. and finally ii see what Nik was saying a few weeks ago. you talk to this dude and he’s just another one of them crazy regular retarded Brown brothers lol. but something happens when GOD begins to work thru him. and its not just in the singing or in the music…there’s something so JESUS about him. i’ve seen this dude minister without hitting a note…i’ve seen him speak words that couldnt have come from no one but God. it just blows my mind.
So ii say to you all reading this…find AP..google them. hit them up on the space. figure out when they are going to be in your area…do whatever it takes to be impacted by their ministry. and even beyond all of that. dont be afraid to let GOD use you. dont run from whatever it is that HE has in store for your life. most times we run from God because we are so afraid of what He has in store but the Bible says “seek ye FIRST the kingdom of God” dont be afraid of whatever it is that he has for your life because you never know how you can minister to someone else. you never know how your ministry can save someone’s life. so when it comes to doing the will of God…please dont hesitate. ii dont care if its the craziest thing that you could ever think…if its in the will of God.do it. In order to live for God or to be used by God you have to be able to submit. give up who you are in order to become who He wants you to be. You will be surprised how God can use you. He will do some miraculous things in your life if you just allow Him to work thru you.

www.myspace.com/ajb1981

can you kick it? cause ii KICKS it…

Posted in AJB & AP, Baltimore, lets have CHURCH!!, the [[OUTZZ]] of my life..., work by Tanae' A. on July 9, 2008
the past week has been a very interesting one. ii have realized a lot of things but the one that sticks out the most right now is that ii really really really do not like my job. ii love the people here. ii love being in this office but ii hate the work that ii do. never thought ii would say that. but ii guess its true what they say: to whome much is given, much is required. so now im being worked to death and part of me cant handle it but part of me knows that ii must master the task at hand in order to get the next level. im on my way to the top and kicking down every closed door that stands in my way.
this coming friday is a day that ii am looking forward to. ii am going to Kicking it with The KING at New Psalmist and ii am ssoo ssoo excited about it. being out on a friday night, party starts at 12 and its all JESUS…ii gotta feel good about that. but ii am even more excited because the best group in B-More is going to be performing. yup.you guessed it right. AJB and Answered Prayers are you going to be in the house. like my mans T.B. says:: if you dont show up, ya mam obviously didnt raise you right. lolzz. but everyone who is anyone ought to be in the place. ima be there at 9:30. doors open at 10 and the party starts at MIDNIGHT. its going to be a llloooonnnggg night and this chick plans on sleeping in on saturday lol.
hope you all have a great wonderful blessed week and weekend.

ii musta thought it was friday…

yesterday, ii was asked to stay at work for a little longer than usual because ii had to cover someone else’s work. by the time ii left out the office ii was beat and just wanted to get as far away from there as possible. well, unfortunately ii waited for the bus for at least 45 minutes and was pissed until ii got a phone call from the bestie. “LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! IM DOING A KEG STAND AS WE SPEAK…GET UR BUTT OVER HERE!!” ok, you do not have to tell me twice. ii calls Shay up and lets her know to be dressed. change clothes and GO!! we got there around 7 and the bestie was already smashed so we had to catch up to get where she was. LET THE PARTY BEGIN!! by the time the goone got there about a half hour later ii was already on my way to the top but we still had to go get the rest of the stuff. so we left out, came back and by that time T was OOUUTT!!! ii musta forgot that ii had to go to work for a minute cause when ii finally realized it, it was already 10:30 and ii was already too far gone. this morning ii woke up pissed that ii have a job to go to SO EARLY IN THE MORNING but im feeling GREAT and when ii get home ii am hopping straight in the bed!! its only thursday…blah.
oh, please please please read HebHeb’s blog. ii fully understand that there is some seriousness in there but there are some really funny points included. tater tots?? so true but so hilarious. oh and the last paragraph in that one post was to die for…[[you know, the one about the suicide]] please, just read it.

you pay to party

so…this [[summer]] we are making HUGE plans to do EVERYTHING and be EVERYWHERE!! things like this cost money…or did no one tell you that?? ii am secretly upset because the Lil Wayne tickets went on sale yesterday morning and after paying bills ii didnt have any money to buy the tickets…ii am hoping that ii can get some good seats before he actually comes cause if we not up in there ii will be upset but oh well. thats not that serious. more pressing irritation…Silk’s Bday. ok, the 31st of this month is my homegurl Silk Rayon’s 21st birthday and we are going to LIVE IT UP!! this means that ii have to buy a dress, shoes, accessories and have enough money to eat and buy me and the bday gurl some drinks…we already got VIP on lock so ii aint gotta worry about that. ok, so whats the problem?? ii have to finish paying off my car and ii have to pay car insurance next pay so that means ii am officially BROKE!! of course, ii always find ways to salvage money out of somewhere so perhaps everything will work out okay. i’ll keep you posted on that event in the days to come.
im just saying…ii need to get on top of my A game cause ii cant be having all these plans with no money but its straight tho because after this pay the car is payed off and all ii gotta worry bout is insurance and a phone….can someone, anyone say hallelujah!! this [[summer]] is about to be right!!

early weekend

so, how did my weekend begin on wednesday?? glad you asked. monday flew by so fast all ii could feel was a gust of wind in the back drop. tuesday d r a g g e d. it was so terrible ii wont even talk about it. so after that horrendous day ii decided ii was going to begin my weekend as of wednesday morning. well. the PLAN was to stay home in the morning and be to work by lunch. sounds good, right?? yeah…sounded okay to me too. but, around 9:30 ii woke up and felt like serious crap. felt so bad ii was forced to get up outta my bed an hour before ii was supposed to. ii ate a lil something took some meds and an hour later ended up calling out for the whole day. well that sucks. around one the medicine was in full effect and ii was feeling a lot better….thats when my weekend began.
ii showered and threw on some clothes. cleaned up my room, threw some meds in my purse for the road and went out the door. we were headed to the mall. it was such a beautiful [[hott]] day out so it was fun just to drive around. we ended up going everywhere the road could take us. us, Bobby and that good ol Tracker [[Jessa’s truck]]. by the time five rolled around we were back on the block and kinda chilled for a min. seemed like we were going all day but did a bunch of nothing. by the time we six o clock hit ii was in need of more meds and a meal. eventually we went home and watched tv, Jessa scooped the bestie after work. of course, ii am at work now but ii am truely in the weekend. TOMORROW IS PAYDAY!!! YaY!! ii am going to get my hair did today after work and then starting tomorrow there are no breaks. after work we must head to help Jazzie get ready for prom, after she leaves we have to help Choc set up for the party. then its on and poppin…PARTY!!! saturday morning we’ll prob go out for breakfast then ii have to head home to get dressed. go pick In and the baby up so we can head to baby DaDa’s birthday party. once we leave there ii have to take In home and head down T.S. to see RahRah and the rest of the seniors go off to their prom. THEN, ii have to take care of Chelley’s hair and go over this dance so she wont embarrass herself on sunday morning. after that its straight to the bed. [[ii wont you all to know that im telling you all this so ii wont have to do it on monday morning]] sunday we have to dance EARLY IN THE MORNING!! so ii have to get up extra early so the baby can be ready to go too. after services we are all going to Longhorn to eat for mother’s day. [[breathe]] then after that ii can chill. ii can prop my feet up and relax, finally. but, there’s always more to do because we have to be at dance practice again on monday and dance EARLY IN THE MORNING for communion….huh…the stresses. im tired just thinking about it but it should be a wonderful great glorious [[summer]] weekend. and you know ill have pics up lol.

shawty pimpin with 2 fish && 5 loaves of bread

Breaking News::

JHW II has a girlfriend!! Yes people, it is official there is no more ‘us’ so as of today Tanae’ is thru with that story and now a new book begins. Wish him and the new beau well. She must be some kinda special if he is into making public announcements and what not. Welp, sucks for me right?? ok. now back to our regularly scheduled program.

Today is the day people… it’s pimpin, pimpin!! Yessir, you guessed it correct…ii am going to see my future baby daddy and ii cannot wait. and for all of you that are interested in the rest of my weekend….it goes as follows::
Right after ii leave the office ii will be going to the shop to check on my baby [[car]] and pick up some paper work so that ii can get my insurance tomorrow. after that ii will be meeting the besties at the crib to change clothes and head out for the night. tomorrow, there is a bunch of stuff on my list of things to do but most of it includes spending money for car stuff and uummm, thats about it lol. Of course, going to the bestie’s house Friday night…DuH. EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY EARLY saturday morning ii will be getting up to go on a rinky dink fishing trip with the youth. ii emphasize early because we have to be there at 6:30 and last time ii checked 6:30 dont have an a.m. so not only do ii have to go fishing which is so not normal in my world…but ii also have to wake up before the damn birds and get to the church. so not excited about that. maybe ii would be a lil enthused if they was frying the fish that ii caught…now that is spoken by a true black person lolzz. THEN ii have to turn around EARLY sunday morning to dance to this ol stupid dance that will have me out of breathe by the time we get down the daggone aisle. good thing there is no evening service…i meant to thank the Bishop personally for putting a stop to that lolzz… monday, its back to the drawing board. back here at work and back here on the blog. you might hear from me before monday morning but ii doubt it very seriously.
and please please pray for my brother/cousin…he is in another state making a fool of himself…Jesus please give that boy a brain asap. ii gosta go yall…muh baby daddy is calling me lmao

here’s some kleenex…dry your eyes

Posted in blessings, family, G-D, people I love, the [[OUTZZ]] of my life..., [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on April 14, 2008
Fam….Tanae’ A. is going to see her future baby daddy on April 17, 2008…. Yes, this coming thursday ii will be in the place and ii owe a special thanks to my dearest and most favoritest uncle in the whole wide world!!! G~Man is alright with me… and thank you Jesus for putting a ram in the bush cause you know that my heart was slowly breaking piece by piece. God is faithful even when I aint….thats something to think about.
If everything goes smoothly as planned I will have my baby on friday….YaY!!

someone cry with me….please, jus shed a tear on my behalf

ok, so everyone knows that Katt Williams is coming to town next week. and everyone knows that ii purchased the tickets the FIRST day that they went on sale because ii could not possibly risk them being sold out. ii have been waiting for this for over a month now. doing a count down in my head. but then, someone mentioned a car…and you know all those funds so necessary for tags and insurance?? well, they kinda slapped me in the face and now im a lil on the broke side. so in order to get the well waited for vehicle to be in front of my house ii have to make sacrifices. yes, ii am giving up on my future baby daddy and selling my ticket to mommy and inside ii am dying but ii know that it will all be so worth it when ii am able to get behind the wheel of MY car on this coming FRIDAY!!! [[a moment of silence for the show that ii am going to miss…]] you know what, im gonna be ok, im gonna make it thru this grieving process and me and my future baby daddy are gonna have to meet up at a block buster somewhere at a later date… matter fact…my car now has a new name… Katt Jr…. no kidding….thats the vehicle name. and ii do understand if your heart is a lil sore from the unexpected change of plans… ii know how much you all wanted me to go and see my mans…
to all you N.O.R readers, Tae’ is back in full effect. poem is posted and we keeping up with the flow. leave me some comments too, ii wanna know what yall think

because there’s always tomorrow…

so, of course, my weekends never turn out how ii want them to but ii must say that saturday was awesome!! ii didnt even bother waking up to go look for a car cause ii didnt feel like being disappointed. so, everything was cool with that one. we left the house around 12:30 after the very very GREAT news!! we had so much fun!! we ate, went to the aquarium, and even climbed all the steps to get to federal hill lolzz. by the end of the day, my feet were hurting, ii was tired and ready to go to sleep. needless to say, after the great day the drama began and the night was terrible. we got back around 9:30 and from midnight to around 5:30 am ii was up mad upset frustrated and sleepy as hell. after all the drama was over, ii felt like crap, my head was hurting from crying so darn much and ii still hadn’t been to sleep but there was no point cause ii would be forced to wake up anyway. ii got up feeling so bad, got dressed and was out the door by 9am. we were on our way to church and that was the LAST place ii wanted to be. the drive was super long but ii felt like the further we went, the further away from my problems ii was going. the more we drove, the better ii felt and by the time we got there ii was okay. the service was great, ii got the word that ii needed to hear and ii left out of there ok. we went to go eat and the food was sooo on point. by the time we got back in the car ii was knocked out for life lmao. went home, took a nap, got up, ate and watched some tv before bed. this morning ii woke up so not ready for work but ii came in here anyway. funny thing is, saturday night ii cried because ii was so pissed, hurt and just fed up but yesterday ii cried because ii knew that something better was coming and ii had something to look forward to. its not about whats going on right now, its not about the shit that is literally trying to break me down but ii know that tomorrow will be better than today and so ii always have something to look forward to…
it takes [[FAITH]] to stand but it only takes ~feet~ to walk away…
aquarium pix on flickr