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and let us REST upon this FINANCIAL BLESSING that we expect of course lol

Posted in church, decisions, family, people I love, phunni moments, sleepy night nights, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on April 14, 2008
“turn your pill-O into a pill-R”
well amen Bishop lol

 

mommy~ oh, she cant count
me~ she gave you extra change??
mommy~ yeah [[while putting money in purse]]
me~ so you not gonna give it back??
mommy~ no, ima put it in church
me~ you are outta order
mommy~ why?? thats like playing lottery and giving offering
me~ no, thats like robbing a bank and tithing with that money. God, dont want that money, He is not pleased
mommy~ [[gets the change to give the extra back but checks receipt first]] oh look, its right…see God, ii was willing…now ii really expect a blessing

because there’s always tomorrow…

so, of course, my weekends never turn out how ii want them to but ii must say that saturday was awesome!! ii didnt even bother waking up to go look for a car cause ii didnt feel like being disappointed. so, everything was cool with that one. we left the house around 12:30 after the very very GREAT news!! we had so much fun!! we ate, went to the aquarium, and even climbed all the steps to get to federal hill lolzz. by the end of the day, my feet were hurting, ii was tired and ready to go to sleep. needless to say, after the great day the drama began and the night was terrible. we got back around 9:30 and from midnight to around 5:30 am ii was up mad upset frustrated and sleepy as hell. after all the drama was over, ii felt like crap, my head was hurting from crying so darn much and ii still hadn’t been to sleep but there was no point cause ii would be forced to wake up anyway. ii got up feeling so bad, got dressed and was out the door by 9am. we were on our way to church and that was the LAST place ii wanted to be. the drive was super long but ii felt like the further we went, the further away from my problems ii was going. the more we drove, the better ii felt and by the time we got there ii was okay. the service was great, ii got the word that ii needed to hear and ii left out of there ok. we went to go eat and the food was sooo on point. by the time we got back in the car ii was knocked out for life lmao. went home, took a nap, got up, ate and watched some tv before bed. this morning ii woke up so not ready for work but ii came in here anyway. funny thing is, saturday night ii cried because ii was so pissed, hurt and just fed up but yesterday ii cried because ii knew that something better was coming and ii had something to look forward to. its not about whats going on right now, its not about the shit that is literally trying to break me down but ii know that tomorrow will be better than today and so ii always have something to look forward to…
it takes [[FAITH]] to stand but it only takes ~feet~ to walk away…
aquarium pix on flickr

something to look forward to…

Posted in choir, friends, Meek, people I love, Shiloh, sleepy night nights, tired by Tanae' A. on March 7, 2008
This week was very…interesting. I was excited on Monday because I was actually able to go home after work and stay there. The rest of the week, however, wasn’t that simple. On Tuesday I ended up having to go handle some business with a friend and we didnt get back in til about 1:30 in the morning. I was a whole lot pissed when it was time to get up and I promised that I would go home and go to sleep on wednesday after work. I actually kept my word and slept for a good two hours. I was ready to be in the bed at ten but then another friend wanted to go on this emotional roller coaster and I didnt get to sleep til 3. I woke up yesterday morning happy that a lot of things got settled the night before but still pissed due to lack of sleep. Yesterday was another long day, I went to see my grandmother right after work. Me and Meek ended up going to the mall to see Nisha and the fam and after about an hour there we went down to see Kev*Out since I couldnt go to the funeral this morning. I was in the bed by 10:30 last night but when I didnt want to get up this morning. I dragged myself into work and was planning to go home and chill. But, what do you know, the good people at Shiloh insist on sending emails out on thursday night to tell us that we have choir rehearsal friday. Do I feel like going?? Not at all but I guess it doesnt hurt to be obedient every once in a while lol. I am going home as soon as we pray out to put on some comfy clothes, chill out and wash clothes. I will wake tomorrow morning excited and happy because I have one hell of a day to look forward to. My bae is coming to see me YaY!! We actually have a plan but I heard that it is supposed to rain tomorrow and that is not good at all. This is supposed to be a whole day together and in the evening we’re hooking up with Meek and her boo. Hopefully it does not rain and we can go thru with our plans but if it does we are def. gonna figure out something else to do. I am just excited because even after a long, tiring week I have something to look forward to.
Let me state for the record how much I absolutely lovezz my homegirl Meek. She is the most retarded person I know but this week has been extra fun because she is just so crazy.

a good weekend=a bad monday

Okay, its not really a bad monday but…

Friday I really had a serious attitude. It was raining outside, I didn’t feel well and my sister was getting on my last half of nerve. After 45 minutes of standing on the bus stop I hopped on the first thing I saw coming. My mom had to pick me up somewhere cause I got on the wrong bus on purpose and then she had to run to the dollar store. Jazzy persuaded me to go to Jason’s Woods with them so I went home to change clothes. We drove for about an hour and then decided to turn around because the weather was too bad and we were hydroplaning [i learned that in driving school ha] and swerving like crazy. So we settled on going to Red Lobster and we ate some of the best food ever. The waiter was really really nice so we left him a big tip and then we went to the pool hall. Me and Matt shot around for a lil bit while Jazzy and Shay looked at us like we were crazy and then around 1 we got in the house.

Of course I was mad as hell when I had to wake up at 8 on Saturday morning. I got dressed and was out the door at 9. I managed to make it to Amy’s to get my hair done about 10 minutes after 10 and I didn’t leave there til about 1 cause mommy got lost coming to pick me up. So, with a headache and growling tummy, I hopped in the car. I was so hungry that I ate a half of chicken box and some food from wendy’s LoL!! so fat!! But anyways… we stopped at the halloween store so that I could get some stuff for the party I was going to go to. We got back in the house and I packed all my bags and was ready to go. Shink plucked my nerves for 10 hours before we left out the house but once we got to Jazzy’s she straightened up a bit. Once we got there our dacquiris (sp) were done and our food was cooking. We walked next door for a while and soon and very soon we sat down to eat. Ronnie hooked us up with some smothered pork chops, cabbage, spanish rice and corn pudding… the food was on point!! After that, Jazzy helped me get my outfit together and then we left to go to Dougs party.

Since we couldn’t find a ride we ended up walking… let me tell you. I had on a mini skirt, some fishnet stockings, some knee boots, and a lil ass black shirt… that outfit does not mix with walking up the street for 20 minutes in the freezing cold. But, I did it and we finally made it. When we got there it was really early still but there were mad people in there. It had to be no later than 8:30 and half of them were already drunk… it didn’t make no sense. We walked around and talked to everyone for a while and then we sat down and watched these people act like fools. Surprisingly, we didn’t drink anything that night besides the dacquiris (sp) that Ronnie made for us… and let me tell you, it is funny watching other drunk people when you’re sober LoL!! but anyways, we left around 12:30. Got in the house, ate some left over food and crashed.

We woke up Sunday morning ready to go to church. [well me and Shink were ready, Jazzy wanted to stay home] Eventually we got her dressed and made her come and she was glad that she did. The sermon was right on time and I think it was something that we all kinda needed to hear. We went to Golden Corale, laughed with Mommy a lil bit and eventually drove back to the house. Mommy went inside and we sat in the car and took the best nap this world has seen. An hour later we were on our way back up Sycamore and into the church. The choir was on point!! The service was extremely long and I was extremely tired but I still stayed til the end. We walked up the street and helped Jazzy with her project that she waited til the last minute to do. By the time we were finished it was 10:30 and I was beat. I went home and hopped face first in the bed and was pised when my alarm went off this morning.

I was so tempted to not come to work because I really feel like crap. My head hurts, my stomach hurts, I think I have a fever and I just do not feel good at all. I will probably end up going home early cause if not I do not think I will make it thru the rest of this day. It is freezing cold outside so I was really mad when I walked out the house this morning. Lucky for me, I put on a sweater and some boots and a scarf cause if not I would probably freeze to death.

I was going to go to dance rehearsal today after work but when I got up I quickly changed my mind. I may just wait and go next monday cause there is no way I am going to make it today. The only thing I want to do is go home and get in the bed… anybody got a thermometer??

A Beautiful Weekend

I woke up on friday morning relieved… it was finally the weekend!! Work was a drag because I was so anxious to just go home. I rushed to the bank in a hurry then ran to WalMart with my mom and sister. Then I had to rush home to change clothes… it was time to hang!! YaY!! We decided to go to Red Lobster and then to the pool hall.. and whatever I had to eat was delicious!! LoL! I los about 40 dollars playing pool but then i got it all back [thank you Lord!] and by 3:30 we were beat and ready to go home. By the time we got home and in the bed it was almost 4:30 and we had to wake up at 7:15 saturday morning. Well morning did come real early but I was working pretty well with my 3 hours of sleep. By the time I got dressed and ready to go it was after 8 and we were late. We made our way down to the church and boarded the van. We were on our way to Sarah’s Hope and I must admit I was not very enthused about going. I know 2 people who were living there for a while and I know that they both put themselves in that situation. Although I felt sorry for their kids I really didnt sympathize with the parents [that I knew] because I know what they did to get to where they were. I guess knowing people who previously lived in the shelter kinda made me look at them all the same. Once we got there we got a tour and we all chose different stations to work at. Once I got there and really saw them all lying there on that floor in one room I guess I kinda changed my view of them. I sympathized with them cause thats the kinda thing I wouldnt want anybody to have to go through, but at the same time… I didnt walk out of there feeling as sympathetic. I really enjoyed myself there. I loved helping them out and really seeing how they live everyday. It made me kinda think that anything can happen at any time and leave you with nothing. I didnt know their stories or what happened to have them there but I knew that right then and there they were lacking something that I had and take for granted everyday. But at the same time, apart of me was a little upset because of the reaction that we got from most of the people there. They were rude, picky, and unappreciative and I feel like when somebody is doing something for you that they dont have to do you can at least act like you a little happy about it. I could’ve been in my bed sleep half the morning but I chose to help them and only a handful were really grateful… because of that handful I would have no problem going back. Even tho I felt like some of them were rude I walked out of there happy because I did something to help somebody and you cant put a price on that. Around one we prayed and made our way back home. After we got back everyone left and me, Shay, Jaz, B, and Ness all went out for the day. We decided to go out to eat but Ness had to get her hair did first!! LoL!! We went to this place called CJ’s around 5:30… they had these crabs that were sooo good!! Then we went to White Marsh to pick something up and was in the house by around 9. I was dogg tired! Around 11 I hit the bed and woke up bright and early in time for early morning service. I probably one of the best palm sundays that i have EVER had!! 8:00 service was OFF THE HOOK and so was 11:00 service and I was churchin all day after that. We decided to go to Red Lobster’s again with the good folks from City of Refuge… and we had a BLAST!! We got in the house around 7 and I was able to be in the bed by 9… thank God!! I was a little tired this morning but I slept so good last night that it didnt even matter. On this monday morning I feel so refreshed and read to get thru this week… And I’m thanking Jesus for conquering death, hell, and the grave!! Find out how I really feel about “Easter” this year at [prayed up]

B.Blessed

Tae’