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Rest In Peace

Posted in love, people I love, R.I.P Askew, R.I.P Brielle, R.I.P Cornell, [[im oh so o8]] by Tanae' A. on June 10, 2008
in four days we will get together to celebrate the birthday of Brielle C. Newland. unfortunately this angel will not be here to celebrate with us but we all know that she is in our hearts forever. and ii know that she would want Rye enjoy their birthdays just like they would if she was here. Happy Birthday Bre. You are loved and missed beyond belief.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tawana:: ii was looking at the pic of you that Brandy had and ii couldnt help but laugh. ii remembered one of the last days we spent together was at the birthday cookout and ii had on my shades… you tried so hard to pull my card in front of mommy. ii threatened you so many times that night but ii would give anything to go back to that day. ill never forget that last night before you went home and you was just talking about life and Sherry on the way to the lion. ii never thought that would be our last night together but ii know that everything happens for a reason and ii know that ii will always remember that weekend. you were the best and ii miss ya crazy self. ii promise, every time ii sit at that computer ii think about you struggling tryin to put it together lmao. love those memories. love you. Rest In Peace, we’re gonna make this a good summer.
Cornie and Bishop:: thank you so much for being with us on sunday. we had so much fun and everything turned out wonderfully. ii know you guys played a part in that. ii know yall are watching over me so yall know everything that is going on down here. just help me to keep praying because im not really sure whats gonna come next and every time ii think about it ii think about the promise ii made you guys. ii kinda know that it wasnt just abouto the choir. love you guys to death and ii wish you were here but ii know that you are in a better place. you guys are the best ever.
 

if ii could send a letter to heaven…

Cornell and MY Bishop,
ii know you two are watching over us so you know everything that is going on. well, it’s that time of the year again and last year you guys pulled us thru in one piece. yeah, youth day o7 was a good day. sometimes, ii tend to forget that you guys are always there is spirit, ii know you will be with us on sunday. every once in a while ii feel like giving up, ya know, feel like walking away but then ii remember that you used to always tell me to keep on coming so thats what im doing. ii just wish that one day ii would walk into that sanctuary and see your smiling faces. but ii carry you in my heart forever. Cornell, ii listen to your solo every once in a while, it makes me smile. it kinda makes me feel close to you in a way. this year, youth day aint as big as it was last year. maybe it wont even be as exciting…but we gonna get up there and do our thang. ii was hoping to make you guys proud but ii know that just my showing up is causing you two to smile. ii miss y’all. so much. thank you for being there always, not just during your vacation on Earth but also for looking out from up there in heaven. aint no way ii would’ve stayed this long if it wasn’t for the influence that you guys have and the promise that ii made.
ii love you ssooo much, continue to be with me, with us, always especially next sunday. ii love you…
Tanae’

“ya gosta keep coming, baby girl”

the last conversations with Cornell and MY Bishop…
it was a second sunday and YYA were not in place. for some reason there had been a drought and everyone was on chills for the most part. after service ii decided to go speak to my two fav persons who were around the piano with K.Wellz. ii stood there for a minute waiting patiently for my opportunity to speak with them. by the time they had ended their conversation with Wellz, ii was talking to Big Brother Shawn so now they were waiting patiently to speak with me lol… ii turned around and bent down to give Cornell a hug then ii stepped around him laughing as Bishop said something so stupid lol. And there came the conversation that ii will forever remember

 

B: what happened to y’all today??
c: baby girl, what ii keep telling ya??
B. ya gosta keep coming baby girl [[while smackin that left hand on the piano lolzz]]…just keep coming
Me: but we aint having no practices, you know that. and when there are practices its only 4 of us up there
C: you gosta keep coming baby, you strut ya lil cute self in here and you sang!!
B: i dont care if its 2 of y’all up there. you keep coming!
Me: i know, yall keep telling me that
C: dont i keep coming?? huh??
Me: yeah you do ya thing Cornell
C: and dont he keep coming??
Me: yeah, my Bishop keep coming
B: alright then, you keep on coming…
Me: aight Bishop, ima come
C: [[giving me that eye]] now who you fooling?? you aint coming.
Me: ok, when they get it together ima come
B: now dont be talking just to be talking. you know im ya Bishop, i know that trick
Me: [[laughing]] when they get it together ima come
C: alright now, you done said it so it is
Me: promise. ima come
B: thats what i like to hear baby girl
C: ya gosta keep coming

~a few months later: January 11, 2007~

B: hey babygirl, you alright??
Me: yeah Bishop, im alright. you hanging in??
B: come on now baby girl you know im hanging!!
Me: yeah…i know you hanging. you gosta hang cause you my Bishop [[laughs]]… just cant believe this crap
B: yeah me either but we know he’s in glory… you just dont forget your promise baby girl
Me: when they get it straight Bishop, ima come. i promised i would. now its just you and us fa’real
B: you know he’s here…WE gonna get it straight. you got it in you baby girl. you and ms. diva over there.
Me: [[looking at Shay thru the doors]] she is kinda cute aint she… we gonna come Bishop, for Cornell, for you
B: for God baby girl…thats who its for
Me: and for God too…but really for Cornell
B: and ya Bishop?? [[huggin me]]
Me: and my Bishop!!

 

so, i made a promise and every time i get up on that choir stand im doing it for Cornell and MY Bishop. [[and for God of course]] but they are my motivation when i dont feel like it. when i wanna stay home on friday nights instead of going to rehearsal…i hear them in the back of my head saying “you gosta keep coming, baby girl” lolzz… I know they better be happy up there cause we doing pretty good for ourselves and i know that if it wasn’t for the promise that i made to them i wouldnt be up there every second sunday having a blast. so thank you Cornell and MY Bishop for pushing me and for them simple words of encouragement…and the big hugs didnt help none either lol. i miss yall like crazy but yall are forever in my heart.

Bishop, My Bishop

Bishop, My Bishop [[aka Askew]]
I never thought I would see this day. I just knew that you were gonna come back just like old times but I guess I was wrong. From the time you first got to Shiloh me and Shay loved ya lil crazy self. You are Cornell were a total package and I never thought we would have to say goodbye. Tell him that I love him and I miss him down here. Tell him that Y&YA are doing pretty darn good with this DonDon fella. Wow, I cant believe this man. This is going to be a hard one to deal with but I know that you and him probably having a blast up there on them heavenly streets. Just dont forget to watch over us and be with us every step of the way. We’ll meet again soon enough.
Rest In Peace 02-19-08

Y&YA

Posted in choir, healing, health, ministry, music, R.I.P Cornell, Shiloh, youth ministry by Tanae' A. on February 6, 2008
This coming friday the youth and young adult choir will come together to have a rehearsal. We now have a new musician and while I am excited about something new I am also a bit skeptical about this. The last time Y&YA sung we had Cornell there with us. I’m doing this for him. I remember so many days we would come out and it would only be four or five of us at best and he would always tell us to keep coming. He always said that it would get better. He was that drive we needed to keep going some days. Even tho he’s not here in person I feel like he is the drive that still keeps me going. I can picture him now with that grin as he raises that one eyebrow and says “baby girl, you gotta keep doin what you doing” and then that crazy Askew Williams would always co-sign with him “thats right keep on coming,  just keep on coming” lolzz… It wont be the same without Cornell but I know that his spirit lives on and because I know that he believed in us i’m going to go in there knowing that we can do and be something better than anyone ever imagined. It may start with a few but I’m believing that we will be fruitful and multiply.
Cornell~ I miss you so much and I love you. Things aint the same without you but I keep you in my heart and I thank you for everything that you  have done. I am a better person because I was impacted by you and I know that you are looking out for me, for us. Strengthen the Bishop so he can come back and play for us real soon. Rest In Peace.
Bishop, My Bishop~ You know I loves you and I hope that you get better real soon cause I miss seeing your smiling face.  Jus take your time and get well because we need you. See you soon and until then you are in my prayers.
Tanae’ A.

memories

Posted in blessings, death, family, good times, life && death, memories, people I love, R.I.P Brielle, R.I.P Cornell by Tanae' A. on January 16, 2008
Three years ago, my Aunt Debbie passed away. Her death was hard to deal with but what was even harder was seeing my lil cousins hurt. One thing that I told them was to hold on to memories that they could see and the one thing that one of them held onto was a picture. The picture was symbolic to him because it wasn’t just a pic of his mom but in the pic she was with his new mom. He looked at her life as a blessing. She brought him to where he was and now he is even more blessed to have a wonderful mother and he always says that two moms are better than one. I smile everytime I see that picture because I remember her and the wonderful person that she was but also I remember the  blessing that she gave to my lil cousins by giving them another family that could help them to grow into wonderful adults.
Two and a half years ago I was forced to say goodbye to my aunt Tee and that was super hard to deal with. There are two things that I carry with me to remember her. The first is a ring that is way to big for my finger but it was hers and so I value it so much and the second is worth way more to me than a gold ring and that is what we call a ‘tee’. One winter a long long time ago we were all cold and back in the day my grandmother didnt have the money to buy us all ear muffs. So Tee started sewing  these things that we could put around our heads to cover our ears. We wore those things faithfully and they were in like fifteen different colors. We named them after her because no one else could make anything like that for all of us lol. But thats one thing that I hold on to cause I know that she made those out of love and so I cherish that. It reminds me of the type of person that she is and the love that she had for us.
I think the hardest thing about death is not just losing a person but moreso losing what that person brought to life. I can easily hold onto memories and I know that even when people are gone their memories are still there.  One thing that I am so blessed with is technology. This past week I smiled in my spirit because altho Cornell is gone his memory lives on. One thing that I was so sad about is the fact that I would never get to hear his voice again but I was surprised on Friday morning when I heard his voice belting thru those speakers. I know that he’s not here anymore on Earth but just hearing that beautiful voice lets me know that he is somewhere singing his was around heaven. I was also very happy because Sunday he wasn’t there in person but he was there in spirit and I remembered him sitting at the piano where he usually sits… Sometimes all that we have to hold onto are memories whether they are tangible or just a memory to make us smile. But whatever the memory may be I thank God for giving us memories to allow us to carry on with each day. Because of those memories all the people that I have had to say goodbye to are still living on. Aunt Debbie is still there with her kids on New Years Eve dancing with us in Nana’s living room, Tee is still sewing tees and blankets that give us comfort in the cold, Tawana is still sitting on Portia’s couch laughing at my sun glasses, Brielle is still impacting lives thru everyday and helping people to grow, Ms. Sarah is still offering smiles and encouragement thru every day  and Cornell is still up there directing that choir and smiling that smile so bright.
{{Rest In Peace}}
[Debbie] [Tee] [Larry] [Brielle] [Tawana] [Ms. Sarah] [Mr. Brooks] [Cornell]

Posted in R.I.P Cornell by Tanae' A. on January 11, 2008

Ladies and Gentleman::

Cornell Smith

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10/01/1964 ~ 01/05/2008