giving back to the one that gave to me

Posted in decisions, family, giving back, healing, hospitals, people I love, prayer, thoughts by Tanae' A. on November 7, 2007

I have some good news and some bad news… well good news comes first and the bad news is not really that bad.

Good news is… my Nana will be getting out of the hospital on the 27th. Yes, that is a long way away but at least she is making enough daily progress to know when she can be released. And there is a possibility that she would be able to get out for a day so that she can come and have thansgiving dinner with the family. I am excited about that.

Bad news:: Most likely she wont be able to live by herself. Everything really depends on how much progress she makes in the next few weeks. There are not too many options as far as living arrangements are concerned but I have decided that if things dont work out the way we hope they do I’ll step up to the plate. Someone made a suggestion that we put her in a nursing home but I know my Nana && there aint no way in hell she going for that. She likes her independence and even if she aint fully independent she want to act like she independent. So in the past hour I have completely made up my mind that I would graciously move into her house and stay there with her. I was thinking after I said it out loud that I just put my foot in my mouth but then I started really thinking about it. After everything that my Nana has done for me I think that I owe her to do something like this. It would be a big move and a huge adjustment but I would be able to do it if I had to.

I just feel like that’s the least I can do ya know… just pray bout it fa’real.

im trying to trust Him…

Posted in emergencies, family, G-D, healing, help me!!, hospitals, hurt, love, people I love, when everything goes wrong by Tanae' A. on November 5, 2007

So, friday night was fun just like any other friday night. I did nothing but chill with my besties and eat sketti all night. I went to see Vicky-T for a while and she seems to be holding up pretty good. But, it was all fun… a great night. Then around 6:30am we get the call that put me in a funk. My Nana had a stroke. I dont think it registered at first, I rolled over and went back to sleep. Woke up went driving and then went to the hospital and thats when it hit me. MY NANA HAD AN EFFIN STROKE!!! It’s been hard seeing her like this. To know that there is nothing i can do. Is she going to pull thru this okay?? I think she will. but its going to be a long hard process and everyone is going to have to be strong for her.

I told myself last night, after being at the hospital practically all day, that no matter what happened I would continue to have faith in God. I’m trusting that He will bring her thru this alright and things will go back to normal but even if they dont [go back to normal] i still wanna know that He is still God. No matter what happens… he’s still faithful. And even when none of us feel like being strong anymore I trust that He’s going to be there to help strengthen us. But right now I dont need him to be my strength, or my friend, or my confidant or even my provider… right now I need him to be her healer. I am unimportant. My needs are not what matters right now… I need him to bring her some strength so that she can walk again, give her some comfort for those lonely nights in that hospital bed… give her some healing that will help her to get better really soon.

i’m trying to trust Him… I really am

lets do something to help free the Jena Six

yesterday, i was at work when my bestie called me with some information. she was tellin me about something that she had heard about 6 black teens getting charged with attempted murder for beating up a white boy after they were harrassed for weeks. i didn’t really understand what she was talking about because she had limited facts but i knew that this was something she wanted to do something. she told me that she wanted to contact HebHeb to see if there was anything that we could do.

well, since there wasn’t too much that i knew about this situation i looked it up online and when i read the story of what happened i wanted to do something as well. [in my own words] in a school in Jena LA, there were 2 black kids sitting under the ‘white’ tree on their campus and white students responded by hanging nooses on the tree. after quite a while of racial tension, and harrassment by white students, a few black kids beat up a lil white boy who was part of all nonsense that had been going on. Six boys got charged with second degree attempted murder. One of the kids already went to trial and was convicted, he will be sentenced with up to 22 years. Let it be known for the record, the lil white boy went to the hospital AND WAS RELEASED THAT SAME NIGHT.

this is ridiculous. there are six kids between the ages of 16 and 18 that are facing a ridiculous amount of years for something as simple as a school fight. i dont know what can be done but i do know that i want to do something to help these boys and their families to get past this craziness. there has to be something that we can do…

V.Tech:: back in action

Posted in be the change, community, healing, hospitals, moving on, V.Tech: Today we are all Hokies by Tanae' A. on August 20, 2007

I am excited to see the students at Virginia Tech getting back into the swing of things on campus. There was a gas leak that left a few students in critical condition [pray for them] and a few others were treated and released.

I am praying for them all because I know it cant be easy going back to that campus after the tragedy that they all have had to endure. I hope that they all can take all their pain and allow it to push them into doing something positive on their campus as well as their community.

Hokie Love

Never ever as long as you live…

Posted in emergencies, family, frustrations, hospitals, mommy by Tanae' A. on July 12, 2007

GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM!! Seriously, you be done croaked, died, came back to life and got sick all over again before anyone anywhere sees you or even attempts to help you.

First let me say, I am tremendously thankful that there was nothing seriously wrong with my mom. I was really worried for nothing because she was ok and well… but I am mad!

On Tuesday, we finally convinceed my mom to go to the emergency room because she was still in pain and we were worried. So we ended up having to wait until my older sister got home from work because we didn’t want to have to take the baby out there with us. So I get home and grab some stuff and by 6:30 me, Shay and mommy were checked in and seated in the waiting area.

It took about 30 min. for them to check her vitals and then we got the news. There would be a 6 to 8 hour wait until she could even be seen. So from 7pm to around 3am we sat around waiting. Then finally they called her name. She went into the back, they ran some tests and still had no idea what was wrong. So they tell us that she has to drink some kinda liquid stuff so they can do a CAT scan… problem… we had to wait for two hours after she drank the stuff for her to even get it done. So we decided to sit in the car and attempt to take a nap [that did not work at all] and then we went in to see if they were ready for her to go in the back. Around quarter to 6 she went in the back and had it done and then we waiting even longer for the results. They still didnt know what was wrong but they ruled out anything that was too serious. So eventually they said they were going to call in another doctor to follow behind them and check things out. We left.

We got in the house around 7:30am and got something to eat… and around 9:30 my mom was in the house too. She said it was nothing serious and they put her on some meds for the pain and that was it. By five she was up and running, driving here there and everywhere like everything was peachy cream. Me, on the other hand, I got about two hours of sleep when I got back in because my body is not used to sleeping during the day. I didnt go to sleep last night until 12 and now I blame all my tiredness on the stupid emergency room that leaves people waiting for lifetimes.

If I ever…. EVER… need to go to the emergency room… I swear to beans that I am going via ambulance because at least those people get seen PRONTO!! LoL!! As a matter of fact… I’m adding 911 to my speed dial… I dont want any hold-ups if I ever have an emergency.