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caught me by surprise

Posted in crying, death, people I love, R.I.P Askew by Tanae' A. on February 20, 2008
Today started out as an okay day. I was tired and had a lot on my mind but it wasn’t a bad day. Things were good and so I decided to email a friend that I haven’t seen a while (totally her fault by the way). We discussed a few things and then right before lunch I get this email saying that she had to tell me something. What is it?? Now, I did not think that it would be anything bad. I figured she was about to share a personal life story to go along with the topic of the day but she tricked me cause the next three words I read was ~Askew William passed~ ok, do not tell me that. No, I dont wanna know. You shouldn’t have told me at all. I tried my hardest to ignore it but I just kept going back to that email and reading those same three words over and over again. There go them damn tears again. Im sitting here looking at Cornell’s pic on my desk wondering why in the world God would take both of them from us. Was He not satisfied with just one?? Maybe Cornell wanted Askew with him up there just like he was with him down here. Maybe God put them together for a reason and wanted them to remain together even after life on this Earth was over. I may not ever understand or be able to deal with the fact that two wonderful great people have been taken from us but I know that God has a plan that I dont have to understand. I was looking forward to seeing his beautiful smile again and hearing his voice and now all we have are memories. I can still see him at that organ with them arms just flying everywhere lol. You would not believe how many services me and Shay were so scared he was gonna fall backwards off that bench lol. Man, I loved me some Askew and now that he is gone I dont know what we are going to do. I’m keeping his family in my prayers and I know that Cornell is taking care of him up in heaven, they gonna give them angels up there a run for their money lol.
Rest In Peace Bishop ~ give Cornell kisses for me

Bishop, My Bishop

Bishop, My Bishop [[aka Askew]]
I never thought I would see this day. I just knew that you were gonna come back just like old times but I guess I was wrong. From the time you first got to Shiloh me and Shay loved ya lil crazy self. You are Cornell were a total package and I never thought we would have to say goodbye. Tell him that I love him and I miss him down here. Tell him that Y&YA are doing pretty darn good with this DonDon fella. Wow, I cant believe this man. This is going to be a hard one to deal with but I know that you and him probably having a blast up there on them heavenly streets. Just dont forget to watch over us and be with us every step of the way. We’ll meet again soon enough.
Rest In Peace 02-19-08

the way things are…

Posted in change, decisions, family, money, moving on, Shink by Tanae' A. on February 20, 2008
Let me get this out the way first::
I was reading my posts from yesterday and I realized that there are like fifteen people with all the same names so I need distinguish that millions lol
Kev*Out~ K.James
Kevin~ K.Powe
Ashley J~ Ashley from Syc
LeyLey or Ashley~ A. Stokes
Anthony~ lil drummer boy
AJB~ Anthony Brown
Jessa~ J.Howell
Jess~ J.Powe
Shink~ Shay P.
Shay~ Nashe B.
Yesterday I was thinking about a lot of things and started making plans to actually take a huge step towards I dont know what. I think that t he past week has been so frustrating to me because I feel as tho there are people who dont take time to appreciate now acknowledge the fact that I do more than required. The people that are standing in this circle would look at what is going on and think nothing of it. It doesn’t matter to them and therefore no one is really standing up in my defense or understanding why I’m so effin pissed about it all. At first I thought I was over reacting but every single person that I mentioned it to outside of my family circle has been blown away. Do I think that I am giving or doing too much?? Not at all but I dont want to feel like Im obligated to do anything. There are, however, too many people telling me that I am giving out too much and its not really worth it. Now, I’m stuck right here trying to figure out what decision is best. And of course, I am thinking about everyone’s feelings besides my own. I promised my ShinkButt that I wouldn’t do anything without her. Now, I’m trying to make that move based on my own selfishness and I know that she would be pissed and I would feel so bad. I dont know. I dont think I really have a choice tho, either I keep things how they are and deal with it or I demand a change and deal with the consequences and accept the responsibility.