Posted in blessings, death, family, good times, life && death, memories, people I love, R.I.P Brielle, R.I.P Cornell by Tanae' A. on January 16, 2008
Three years ago, my Aunt Debbie passed away. Her death was hard to deal with but what was even harder was seeing my lil cousins hurt. One thing that I told them was to hold on to memories that they could see and the one thing that one of them held onto was a picture. The picture was symbolic to him because it wasn’t just a pic of his mom but in the pic she was with his new mom. He looked at her life as a blessing. She brought him to where he was and now he is even more blessed to have a wonderful mother and he always says that two moms are better than one. I smile everytime I see that picture because I remember her and the wonderful person that she was but also I remember the  blessing that she gave to my lil cousins by giving them another family that could help them to grow into wonderful adults.
Two and a half years ago I was forced to say goodbye to my aunt Tee and that was super hard to deal with. There are two things that I carry with me to remember her. The first is a ring that is way to big for my finger but it was hers and so I value it so much and the second is worth way more to me than a gold ring and that is what we call a ‘tee’. One winter a long long time ago we were all cold and back in the day my grandmother didnt have the money to buy us all ear muffs. So Tee started sewing  these things that we could put around our heads to cover our ears. We wore those things faithfully and they were in like fifteen different colors. We named them after her because no one else could make anything like that for all of us lol. But thats one thing that I hold on to cause I know that she made those out of love and so I cherish that. It reminds me of the type of person that she is and the love that she had for us.
I think the hardest thing about death is not just losing a person but moreso losing what that person brought to life. I can easily hold onto memories and I know that even when people are gone their memories are still there.  One thing that I am so blessed with is technology. This past week I smiled in my spirit because altho Cornell is gone his memory lives on. One thing that I was so sad about is the fact that I would never get to hear his voice again but I was surprised on Friday morning when I heard his voice belting thru those speakers. I know that he’s not here anymore on Earth but just hearing that beautiful voice lets me know that he is somewhere singing his was around heaven. I was also very happy because Sunday he wasn’t there in person but he was there in spirit and I remembered him sitting at the piano where he usually sits… Sometimes all that we have to hold onto are memories whether they are tangible or just a memory to make us smile. But whatever the memory may be I thank God for giving us memories to allow us to carry on with each day. Because of those memories all the people that I have had to say goodbye to are still living on. Aunt Debbie is still there with her kids on New Years Eve dancing with us in Nana’s living room, Tee is still sewing tees and blankets that give us comfort in the cold, Tawana is still sitting on Portia’s couch laughing at my sun glasses, Brielle is still impacting lives thru everyday and helping people to grow, Ms. Sarah is still offering smiles and encouragement thru every day  and Cornell is still up there directing that choir and smiling that smile so bright.
{{Rest In Peace}}
[Debbie] [Tee] [Larry] [Brielle] [Tawana] [Ms. Sarah] [Mr. Brooks] [Cornell]

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