back like the two step!! LoL!!

Posted in life by Tanae' A. on December 12, 2007

Hello All!!

Well, I am back and well refreshed well actually, truthfully, im hella stressed but I cant live without my blog so…

Everything is everything. Some things are good and some things are going to get better but no matter what I know damn well I have no room to complain. [i’ll apologize for the profanity early… I am in a bit of a cursing mood today] These past few weeks have been hard but some days were easy. Maybe because I have some wonderful people that help me thru. I dont know. I know that right now there’s a lot on my mind and a lot of decisions that I have to make but I am feeling pretty confident in myself. God is trying to prepare me for something and I have been wrestling with it for quite some time now and oh how bad I want to share it but now is not the time. He is pushing me to do some things in order to help someone else and in order to do what he is asking of me I have to put myself on the back burner. This is usually easy for me to do but for once I am concerned about my feelings and I wanna make sure that I am okay at the end of the day. So I guess this just means that I need to have a lil more FAITH in him to know that as long as I’m doing what He asks of me I will be okay.

I think I always have this  lil thing where I seem to question God. Not even really question Him because I know that what He wants is always whats best but I question the effect that His plan is going to have on me. I am trying to  figure out what will happen if I do what I’m supposed to do and I think that Hes trying to show me bits and pieces of the finished product but in order to see what lies ahead I have to  keep moving in the direction that he wants me to go.

HaHa! that just reminded me of a while back I was talking to my favoritest mentor HebHeb bout something [i dont remember what] but his idea of advice was two simple words…KEEP MOVING!! no matter what I said he just kept sayin those words and that day I honestly could’ve smacked him in his throat but a lil later on down the line I appreciated what he said. And I think that just now that same advice just smacked ME in the throat lol!!

So really… no matter what happens… there are no more stand stills in life cause everytime I stand still I’m losing time that I’ll never get back so I might as well just KEEP MOVING and keep believing that God is going to take me in the direction that I need to go. Thanks HebHeb… your advice from a year ago just got me thru today…

Talk to you guys later… keep praying 4 this chick!!

Let It Snow, Let It Snow —> F THE SNOW!!

Posted in Uncategorized by Tanae' A. on December 5, 2007

this morning on my way to work I noticed little white flurries coming from the sky. you know, its really amusing how it flutters around before actually hitting the ground. but the thing that really pisses me off the most is that when i saw the snow… i smiled. not because i was happy about it or excited that snow actually came to meet us this year but i was actually quite amused that even the snow has a way of reminding me of HOW I ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY HATE LIFE RIGHT NOW!!! i am convinced that the snow has only come to add to my misery and really just throw me over the edge but i am trying my hardest to ignore it. i dont want snow… i dont want christmas… i dont want a new year… i dont even want a new day so someone please tell me what is the effin point of being mad when there are so many things to be mad about?? whether i like it or not the snow is falling, christmas is coming and a new year is on its way so i might as well smile my lil fake ass sarcastic smile and get over it. and you really wanna know the funny part… i was actually happy yesterday. i was trying to make this christmas mean something but it turns out its just going to be another day on my calendar… but aside from all that i was actually taking time to see the good in things. i was laughing with my sisters and spending time with my TroyBoy and i was smiling at the little things… but this morning when i wake up the evil frickin witch from the west or wherever the hell she comes from decides to start some shit so what do ya know… my day is effed up. because we all know that when one thing goes wrong EVERYTHING goes wrong and today since i woke up about 500 things have gone wrong. i am going to church tonight… i dont even know what advent is but im still going because right now i need to be in any church that has its doors open… uurrggghhh…

well since it is snowing might as well give me a good 3 feet so i can be out of work and find a damn hill to slide down… [&& i said that with all sarcasm]]