The Half That Makes Me Whole

Posted in blessings, family, friends, love, Luvli Ladiez, people I love, Shink, sisters by Tanae' A. on October 18, 2007


I absolutely love my Shink!! She is the bestest thing in my life and I know that no matter what happens or where life takes us she will always be there. In case you dont know Shink is my twin sister. She is everything that I am not and everything that I am… I know thats weird but she is. She understands me and puts up with me every single day and I could not picture life without her. She is my absolute best friend in the entire world and I just adore her so effin much. She’s funny and silly and she makes my bad days good. She also makes my good days bad but thats part of the reason why┬áI love her so dag-on much. She keeps me in check and she’s always got my back. She’s crazy in her own little way and I really cant say that I love her enough. I really cant describe what she is to me because she is everything. She is my heart, she is me. I am her. We are conjoined at the hip and nothing or no one could seperate us. I will love her forever until the day I leave this Earth and if I die before she does I’ll be the guardian angel that helps her thru every day. She is the blessing that I dont deserve. She is the strength that I so graciously need sometimes. She is my shoulder to cry on and the force that keeps me grounded. She is my hug when I am lonely and my smile when I am pissed. She is my everything. I dont know what God was thinking when he sent me her but he must’ve known that I would be incomplete without her. He must’ve known that I would be a half of a person if she weren’t there. I thank God for her life every single day and if she were ever taken from me I really just dont know what I would do. There would be no reason for living without her because she is my air… she’s my reason to go on. She is my smile when I am forced to wake up every morning. She is my late night conversation when I cant get to sleep. She is my sanity when I seem to have lost my mind. She is the half that makes me whole and no words in the dictionary could ever say how much she means to me… she is the most important person in my life, she is my life. I love her more than life and without her there is no life.

This is my ShinkyShay!!

[everyday i am going to write about a certain someone who is something like a necessity in my life… today is Shink tomorrow will be my brother Phil]

where do I draw the line??

I am a lil bit stuck right now. I am almost 20 years old and I realized that my life is the way it is because I dont know where to draw the line. There is still so much in life that I want to do. I still want to go out and have fun and enjoy myself but there is a very thin line that can easily be crossed. How do I go out and have fun without throwing a hex in my growing relationship with God. Like, next weekend is my sisters 21st birthday party and she really wants me to go. I really want to go. I want to go have fun, dance the night away, chill with some friends and just enjoy myself but does that make me a hypocrite? If I sit in a club half the night and then get up to go to worship service the next morning should I feel bad about it. My problem is, I dont know where the line is drawn. These days I dont even know if there is a line but I dont want to be considered someone who lives two seperate lives. I just want to have fun and I am terrified that I’ll find myself in either of the two extremes. Either I’ll live for Christ and will not have fun at all point, blank, period. Or I’ll have fun and go too far. I dont want neither of those things to happen. I think I deserve to go out and have fun with my friends. I think I deserve to just enjoy myself every once in a while without feeling guilty about. So where do I draw the line??