a minute away from ministry

Posted in ministry by Tanae' A. on August 13, 2007

A week ago today my lil sis MoMo hit my phone up to ask me if I was going to dance rehearsal. I told her no. So of course, she wanted to know why and when I was going to start dancing again. At first, I was going to just ignore her question and keep on moving but for some reason I felt as tho I had to tell her. And so I explained to her why I am no longer active in ministry and why I chose to distance myself from quite a few people.

Here is my reason.

Ministry, to me, is a lifestyle. There would be no sense in getting up in front of people every sunday to dance or sing when I’m living something totally different. The last thing that I want to be is a hypocrite and so I decided that there’s a lot of things that I have to work on before I can get up to minister to anyone.

Why have I distanced my self from certain people?? There are two reasons…

1. There are a lot of people that will surround you and cause you to lose focus on what it is that you are trying to do and so to avoid getting side tracked I would rather much just push everyone away and do what I have to do. I’m not saying that everyone around me is negative but I only want to be around people that are going in the same direction as me. Therefore I had to distance myself before I found myself lost.

2. There are a lot of people that look up to me and I didn’t really realize it until recently. I dont want to be the one to hinder anyone’s growth so before I can try to set and example for someone I need to get myself together. I’m not saying that I live a life that is totally wrong because I honestly walk away from a lot of negative things but I need to change my way of thinking. I need to work on my mind. I need to change my outlook an a few things and I do see myself changing but I dont want to be a hinderance to anyone elses growth. So I’ll chill out for a lil bit and get myself together before I do anything.

I dont really know when I will be able to become active in ministry again. I really do miss being active but I know that now is not the time to take that step. This past Sunday, Bishop asked all the choir members to come up and I was OBEDIENT and did what I was asked and I must admit, I remembered how much I really do love it up there. I know its not the right time to get started again in ministry but soon and very soon I’ll be back up there ministering… doing what I do, ya know?? LoL!!

Pray for me guys.


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