getting my mind right

Posted in check ya flesh, get ya mind right, thoughts by Tanae' A. on July 19, 2007

I often times get overly excited when I see myself growing. There are a lot of things that I dont do anymore and there are a lot of ways that I handle things differently but someone pushed me back a lil this past weekend. As we are sitting here playing Monopoly, Bry says a simple seven words that have stuck with since then. “As a woman thinketh, so is she” Of course I have heard this before. Too many times before. But it just really hit me in the past week. I may not do a lot of things but I still think about them. I didn’t cuss homegirl out but in my head I was thinking of all the ways that I could blow her out the water and hurt her feelings. I didn’t do this or that, I but I certainly thought about it and that is just as bad as me doing it. So I am now working on getting my thoughts together. I dont want to think about the things that I shouldn’t be doing.

I dont know… I’m just still praying about it…

I’m really trying to be better guys.

i think i can make it through this week

Posted in check ya flesh, differences, humility, issues, moving on by Tanae' A. on July 19, 2007

This morning I woke up and for some reason I had the strong urge to check my email before I got to work [which i never ever do] I opened up the email that I had been patiently waiting for and when I got finished reading it, I smiled. Not because I was happy, or excited, but because I was content. This issue that I have been struggling with is officially over. I got through this without cursing anyone out or going off and I am proud of myself. I know that a big part of me wanted to really go off on this chick but I didnt do that and because I thought about what I said before I said it this issue was resolved in a very respectful way on my part. I feel really good and I honestly didnt think that today would be a good day when I woke up this morning but it’s turning out to be a very thought provoking thursday and I know for sure that I will get through this day in one piece… and I’m waiting for tomorrow to knock on my front door.


are you really serious?? Really??

Posted in family, healing, issues, mommy, people I love, prayer by Tanae' A. on July 19, 2007

Ok. remember them days when you were little and you went to mommy to ask if you could go somewhere or do this and you got so excited when she said yes. But then. Daddy comes home early or she says the three dreadful words “Ask your father” and you know that any plans that you just had are now totally flushed down the drain. Thats how I feel right now.

I got soo darg on happy last week when my mom came back from the emergency room totally fine. I was excited because I was very worried and I felt a lot of comfort knowing that there was nothing seriously wrong with her. So, a week later she had to go to another doctor for an already scheduled appointment and they told her something that could possibly not end well. Now all of my worries are back and they will continue to linger until this journey is over and we know what is really wrong. They are telling us that we would have to wait at least two months to know if this is anything serious but its hard waiting ever-so-patiently for the doctor to say something that you dont think you would want to hear.

Just continue to pray cause right now thats the only hope that I really have. I’m praying that this is something that we can deal with… No, let me take that back. I know that whatever it is, we will get through it but I hope that this is just another easy hurdle to hop over.