Posted in decisions, him, hurt, issues, life, love, people I love, seperation by Tanae' A. on May 18, 2007

I laugh at myself sometimes and I know there are a few people who look at me and think how stupid I must be but for some reason that doesn’t matter to me anymore. I used to really think about ending it with *him* but reality is that when things are good it makes all the tears and all the arguments and all the worries well worth it. Nothing in the world could possible compare to how I feel when I get to be with *him* and be happy. Nothing could take away that feeling that I get when I hear *him* say that he loves me… and I know its true.

It’s been almost two years and I plan to stick this thing out for another two years or however long it takes *him* to finish school. His brother asked me a while ago why I continue to be there and I tell everyone just like I told him… I do it because I love *him*. And I never ever question his love for me because I dont have to. I know it’s real.

A lot of people ask me how I deal with the whole trust thing but I dont think it’s hard. I trust *him* to come back to me and that’s all that matters. We are both living our lives the best way that we know how to and we both do what we wanna do but I know damn well that he aint giving nobody else his heart… his heart belongs to me.

I dont know what will happen in the next two years or how this relationship is going to go but I know that for right now I’ve learned to be content with the way things are. Maybe in the next two years we’ll realize that it’s not meant to be and we’ll both have a change of heart. Maybe we’ll become stronger. Maybe every obstacle that we face will bring us closer together and maybe it will tear us apart but like I tell *him*… I aint going no where until I know that we are over.

At the end of the day… I’m gonna do what I wanna do and live life to the fullest but there is no one in the world that will be able to take his spot. No one else in the world will ever capture my heart or touch my soul the way he does. I love *him* so much and even through our problems and issues he lets me know that he loves me too.

We’ll have our good and bad days and I may continue to cry myself to sleep some nights… but all of it is worth it when I get to be in *his* arms where I belong. Kisses Baby!!


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