history in the making

ii am proud right now just knowing that ii am experiencing history taking place. Barack Obama has made me proud and even if he does not take his rightful place in the white house ii am still proud to be an American citizen. He has broken barriers and set records that no one else has been able to set. He is the first BLACK MAN to get this far in the presidential elections and ii am proud of that. ii pray he makes it all the way but for right now ii am happy to say that ii have a front row seat of history in the making. shaback hallelujah BARACK praise the Lord…lolzz, ii stole that from someone but sshhh thats our little secret.

oh, please please please be in prayer for my extended family, just pray that they are strengthened and keep the faith during everything that they have to go thru, today, tomorrow or years from now.

Cinderella awaits…

one day ii was on the space, not doing anything important and ii saw this lil gurl on Heb’s page. me in all of my curiosity, ii wanted to know who she was. ii automatically went to his blog and there was her story. links…more of her story. pictures, slide shows of this lil girl, beautiful as can be with the most precious smile i’ve ever seen. her eyes are so full of life and as ii sat there reading her story my eyes were full of tears. from that point on ii was amazed by this little gurl. her strength, her courage but more than anything God’s favor on her lil life. it must be something special in her for her to go thru all that she has endured and still smile that pretty smile.

today ii read some bad news. Talia cannot have surgery and right now that is the only cure for her cancer. her parents are faced with a problem….does she go thru treatment or not?? while ii am praying for her parents, family and friends ii am also praying for this young girl whose only wish is to go see Cinderella’s castle. well Talia, Cinderella’s castle is for princesses so ii think you would fit right in. ii wanna help, and ii dont know how to do that. ii know that there are fund raisers for the treatment and things like that but ii wanna give Talia a wish. maybe it wont bring a limo to take her an airport and maybe it wont put her up in a fancy hotel for a week but Talia wants to go to Cinderella’s Castle and the way ii see it….if she cant get there, Cinderella needs to come to her. pray for Talia Marie Pleasant and all those impacted by her life.

read Talia’s story

Sorry Obama… ii couldn’t vote for you

I just want the entire world to read my story about why i COULD NOT vote just so that my man Barack knows that I was not just taking up space in the world when I had a clear chance to make a change… I was about ten minutes from home when my mommy called me to tell me that she was waiting for me so that we could go vote together. I was so super excited as I walked into my front door. Mommy was ready so I ran upstairs to slip on some jeans and then we were ready to go but I was distracted by my nephew so she decides to rush me. Here she is running for the exit and I TOLD HER IT WAS SLIPPERY OUTSIDE and what do you know she fell and busted her tail in that big ugly red coat of hers. At first I was scared…dear Jesus Mama done killed herself tryna make a change…but then she starts laughing. You shoulda seen her sliding down these steps cracking up like there was no tomorrow. So ten minutes later we get her up and we are on our way. The voting spot was just up the street from my house so we decided to walk, no use getting in the car when we can just get in some exercise. We are walking up this street and mommy is holding onto my arm for dear life, someone should teach her how to walk on ice. She is slippin and slidin everywhere [[and she had on boots so I dont know why she was slippin]] and the whole time I’m cracking up. So, this idiot [my mother] tells me that we are voting at the hall so we walk all the way over, she slips and almost falls again, and there is no one there. So we standing like a bunch of idiots in the street wondering where everyone is. I call Aunt Boone to ask her where we were voting at and she tells me that she told BooBoo the Fool that we were voting at the Middle School but she didnt want to hear it. So we walk in the OPPOSITE direction all the way to the middle school and we are almost there. And what do you know, this fool falls again right on her butt lolzz. Ok, maybe I shouldnt laugh at her but how do you fall three times just to go vote… funny thing is: SHE FELL IN THE GRASS…how that happens I will never know. So we go into this school and im cracking up laughing. Finally we make into the voting area and there is this camera there for ABC news and I told my mother DO NOT WALK WHERE THE CAMERA  IS but she grabs my arm and pulls me anyway talking about the camera aint on. Well how she know it aint on?? So, anyways, all these nice corny looking people are sitting at this table so we walk up super excited and thats when it happens. “Ma’am, when you registered to vote you failed to check Democrat or Republican, you didnt check a box so unfortunately you cannot vote today.” Okay uuummm…. “Well what DID I check off??” “You didnt check anything but you can fill out this form and vote next time.” Ok, can I smack you please?? What do you mean I cant vote. Do you not understand that I have been looking forward to this for forever and I cant vote?? I dont understand. Someone explain this mess to me. I want to vote today, right now. Obama is depending on my vote… OMG!! I cannot believe this. So I very angrily go to fill out this stupid stupid paper and I forced this man to give me a sticker saying I voted because it truely was not my fault that I could not vote and I think that a small minor thing like that should not keep me from voting. I think that is discrimination of the worst kind and I do not approve lol. So, Barack Obama, I am sorry that I could not vote for you on tuesday but I really wanted to and I hope that you understand that.

Oh, and four minutes after we walked past the camera I get a text message saying that someone saw me and mommy dearest on the news… how lame is that??

And for all of you praying people out there, pray for mommy’s booty cause it really hurts. Well actually, pray for her booty, hip, ankle and shoulder cause she hit all of it when she fell and now she limping around the house like somebody just beat up her whole right side lol.

i am such a rebel lol

I have always been told that if you want something done you gotta do it yourself. So I am taking the initiative and im doing things on my own, with the help of someone else. Why sit around wait for someone else to do what I should be doing anyway. Im going straight rebel and im getting things done and im not taking no for an answer. There comes a time when we have to stop riding the bench and actually get in the game… well im in the starting line-up and ready to go. There are going to be a few people who will turn up their noses at what we are doing but I am believing by faith that there more that will stand behind us and support us…

Y.R.P all day long ya digg

Tanae’ A.

status update:

# of txts as of 020508: zero

# of incoming calls as of 020508: zero

# of emails as of 020508: zero

# OF PPL I REACHED OUT TO: ZERO

what the future holds…

there are a few people in my life that often express their “concerns” when it comes to certain things. most times the concerns are school or poetry related but every once in a while someone will throw me for a loop. because i am who i am i usually outwardly dismiss their concerns but i do hold onto them internally [[if that makes any sense]]. needless to say, nothing that i do to better myself is ever to please anyone else but only so that i might gain from it. people have been telling me for over a year now that i need to go back to school but i have not gone because I was not ready to go back. plenty of people have asked me why all of a sudden i have stopped writing and when i am going to start back up again. people have told me time and time again that i should pick up a trade or do this or that. i have finally come to a point where i have decided that i am going to do things on my own time and in my own way and when i do decide to make choices as far as school, my writing, or any other thing in my life is concerned i am going to keep it to myself. of course, there are a few choice people that are going to know about my decisions but in order for me to do certain things i have to keep certain people out of the loop. i just want everyone to know that i have started making some “adjustments” and i am trying to get on [[and remain on]] the right track. we’ll see where this road leads me and prayerfully i’ll end up where i need to be. so keep praying and maybe sooner rather than later you “concerned” individuals will be well pleased. and those of you that have been priviledged enough to know of my future plans [[and there are only three of you outside of family]]… you should feel most honored lolzz!!

oh and for all of you N.O.R readers… there will be no poetry up for a while so give the page a break for a few months. I have posted quite a bit of surveys up but its nothing too interesting.

[[im oh so 08]]

pay attention to the warning signs

there was a shooting in Ohio. a kid that was suspended went to the school yesterday and shot four people before killing himself and yet again, there were warning signs. he told them what he was going to do, they complained but nothing was done. no one had time to do anything to prevent things from happening. did they think he was bluffing? well, they should’ve have known by now that anything is possible. anybody can walk up into any school, workplace or building and cause havoc. what used to be ubsurd and unheard of us becoming way too common in the world in which we live… so what do we do about it?? this could have been prevented. everything can be prevented if we do something. if people would stop being “too busy” can start caring than the down fall of a generation can be prevented. just like the principal of that school was too pre-occupied to do anything, most of us in our communities are too pre-occupied to do anything. but when it hits close to home then we cry for help. when its our own children that are in danger, then we wanna protest and do something and have a fit. look around you… there are warning signs. So, do we wait til its too late or do we do something to prevent it??

this is more than just another school shooting…

Music is Everything…

I know that too many people went out to see the very talked about movie Dream Girls. It turned out to be better than I ever thought it would be and I even got the dvd and soundtrack. My favorite best song on the soundtrack besides Jimmy’s Jam [LoL] is a song called “I Am Changing” by Jennifer Hudson or Effie… here are the words:

 Look at me, Look at me
I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I’ll be better than I am
I’m trying to find a way to understand
But I need you, I need you
I need a hand
I am changing
Seeing everything so clear
I am changing
I’m gonna start right now, right here
I’m hoping to work it out
And I know that I can
But I need you, I need a hand

All of my life I’ve been a fool
Who said I can do it on my own
How many good friends have I already lost?
How many dog nights have I known?
Walking down that wrong road
There was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness
Looking for some light
But now I can see

I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I’ll be better than I am
But I need a friend
To help me start all over again
That would be just fine
I know it’s gonna work out this time
‘Cause this time I am
This time I am
I am changing
I’ll get my life together now
I am changing
Yes I know how
I’m gonna start again
I’m gonna leave my past behind
I’ll change my life
I’ll make a vow and nothings gonna stop me now

I love this song so much because, 1, she sings it with so much power as she does every other song, but mainly because of the words. We all get to a point in our lives where its time to make a change for the better. I think that everyday I change a lil. Everyday I grow a lil and everyday I’m closer to being such a better person.

The other night I sat at my best friends house til atleast 12:30. We played cards, made spaghetti, and even recorded ourselves singing a bunch of dumb songs. We just sat there, the four of us and Chelley and when I got home I was proud of the change that we all have made. I remember a day in time where Chelley could never just sit up with us because we were always doing something we shouldn’t be doing. We would have to send her to her room or something and watched as she peaked around corners or thru windows. But the other day, we sat there with her acting dumb and stupid and there was nothing wrong with it. We sat up with Big Mama for at least 3 hours and laughed and laughed and sang a bunch of songs off key because we could. Because there was nothing there to hide besides the fact that none of us can sing a lick. But it was fun. And thats where changing has got us. To some people it may be just something minor or stupid but to me that means a whole lot to be able to sit here with my bestie’s sister and grandmother and just have fun and be myself and act stupid and know that I didn’t even have the desire to go out and get into trouble. Nothing compares to that.

got me thinking

Seems like a lot recently HebHeb has been trying to push me to do things. First it was the suggestion to learn more about politics and actually do something in the community in which I live. Then it was this Jena 6 thing that caught my attention, and he thought that maybe I should do something since there was nothing going on in Baltimore that neither of us had heard about. And now, I feel like I’m kinda getting nudged to do something in discipleship on next Wednesday. My question to myself has been, what the heck does this man see in me that would make him think that I have one activist bone in my body. First off, I dont even like being in charge of things so that is totally completely out of the question and even if I did I wouldn’t know the first thing to do or say or where to go.

I’ve just been thinking about that lately… why me??

Welp, I guess one day I’ll get to a point where I MAY consider spear-heading something but for now I’m cool chillin on the sidelines just chillin out.

Tae’ 

V.Tech:: back in action

I am excited to see the students at Virginia Tech getting back into the swing of things on campus. There was a gas leak that left a few students in critical condition [pray for them] and a few others were treated and released.

I am praying for them all because I know it cant be easy going back to that campus after the tragedy that they all have had to endure. I hope that they all can take all their pain and allow it to push them into doing something positive on their campus as well as their community.

Hokie Love

people i am proud of

There are a lot of people right now that are really just doing their thing and I must put them out there and let them know how proud i am of them.

Here we go::

JazzyGurl:: My gurl Jaz was being home schooled for a year because she was going thru kemo and radiation but she is officially enrolled in school again and this year she will be GRADUATING!! I am so proud of her because she has really come a long way and she has big goals!!

KPC:: Yes yall, it’s my mommy. She is doing really good in this new business and she is well on her way to success… like she say…we bout to be BALLING!! LoL!! I smell the money mama!! The hard work will pay off… trust.

Phil:: My brother is coming back to Baltimore but this time I think he really has his head on straight. He is saving up money, trying to get a place and for once in my life I really see him trying to do something better with hisself. I’m hoping and praying that I’m not wrong about this one… but I got that gut feeling that this is going to work out for the best.

My HebHeb:: Well, aside from all the wonderful, fantastic things that this man does everyday I am absolutely proud of him because this past Sunday, he did his first baptism!! I was like so excited to see him up there.. so I cant even imagine how it must feel to be in his shoes.

Mrs. Brown:: I must say that it cannot be an easy task to stand beside such a great and wonderful man such as Heb. I def. have to send major kudos her way for that one… besides, she makes HebHeb mushy!! LoL!!

Shay:: My homegirl Shay is finally on her grind. She just started a really good job and her and her boo are trying to do big things… It’s been 7 years now, I’m still waiting on them wedding bells!! LoL!! But, she’s doing good and I am so proud of her for taking a stand on her own and really growing to be the woman that God is calling her to be.

MoMo:: The past month or so has been rough on my lil sis Morgan but I see growth in her that I wasn’t expecting to see this soon. She has her head on straight again and she is focused on the things that matter. A lot of people try to label her something that she is not and hopefully her actions will prove them wrong, but even if they dont, I am very proud of her and I know that she’s on her way to becoming a beautiful respectable talented young lady.

Last but certainly not least,

Angela Braden::  Yes, it’s correct. I am proud of Angie. She takes time out everyday to let people, strangers, peak into a part of her life that she could keep very private. Everyday that she posts something on her blog, she inspires someone somewhere and because of that I am proud of her. She lives a life that speaks wonders and she has not short handed herself by drowning in her sorrows. She has accepted the life that God has designed for her and lived it completely to the maz and I am completely inspired to do more just because everyday she gets up, gets dressed, goes to work, and actually LIVES and thats something I can say for a lot of people that do have their sight. Kudos to you, Angie.

All of these people have positively impacted my life in some kind of way but more than that, they impact other peoples lives every day. I love all of them dearly and I learn something from at least one of them everyday. So, to them I say, Continue on the path that you are going. You are destined for greatness.

Everyone has someone that pushes them to do more… and these are the few people in my life that make me want so much more out of my life… not just for me, but for the people that I can inspire a long the way.