when I need a friend.

Today, I desperately needed someone to talk to and i was sitting here trying to figure out who the heck I could call. I called my sister but for some unknown reason she didn’t come to the phone. I called my brother then I realized that he was a total idiot. So I sent a message to the one person in the world that I just knew would not even think to respond. But he did. Just like he always does when he knows I need him. Just like the last time, when he was forced to push away all the anger he felt at the time and cater to me…again. That’s why I love him… because I know that despite everything that ever happens… he loves me too… he loved me first. And that means the world to me plus some more. I know that whenever I really need someone to talk to… if I call on him, he’ll be there. It’s like that Beyonce song… “I dont know why he loves me… and that’s why I love him. Catch me when I fall simply flaws and all thats why I love him.”

death all around me

This morning, someone that I know just got word that her great-aunt had just passed away. It’s hard. I get this eery feeling everytime I hear of something different. So many people leaving this earth. I just keep praying everyday that the people that I love and care about and need dont make transition anytime soon. But the more I see the people around me going through grief that more fearful I become. It’s hard. Thats all I can think to say. It’s hard. Hard telling someone that everything is going to be okay. Hard not knowing what to say when she sits there crying not knowing what to do next. It’s hard. But I’m praying for her and the family. Much Love && Peace.